Hannah Capps
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Within my faith of Christianity, I've found and learned many things outside of those Biblical...One is, most so called believers in God are only so in name and not in practice...They don't breath in and out prayers to the God they claim to serve... 24And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. 25Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching. Hebrews 10:24-25 I wonder why fellow believers in God forget this? We are to build one another up, not tear one another down...A house divided cannot stand...Recent example of a worship service when I was a my local Church...
I'm singing with everyone else, and as so often happens, I'm complemented regarding my voice and how pure it sounds and pleasing to the ear...I say thanks, and also say that it is for the glory of my Lord...Recently I've been wearing short t shirts as its been hot here in Virginia...the reactions I've gotten when I raise my arms and hands to my Lord in freedom and worship to Him have been negative...My voice makes me stick out in worship to begin with, add to that my scared and cut up arms raised to God and it causes raised eye brows...Usually, its not 'How can I pray for you?' its 'why do you maim the temple of God in that manner' or 'you are to pretty to disfigure yourself in such a way' 'you are lacking in faith, pray for more faith' and a whole manner of judgments passed, 1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. Matthew 7:1 I suppose they forgot that verse from Christ...
While attending Liberty University from 2002-2004 I was a Biblical Studies Major and a Government Minor...many of the classes attended were seminary classes...the way I've come to see the Word of God, is something that is truth, and the way in which those in the Church have through the ages distorted the truth to fit there agenda for control and power...Neglecting there role given by God, to seek there own personal gain...leads to there downfall and blindness of the assembly...There are men and women of every age the voices crying in the barren wilderness, what the truth is...To question what is being told to them, encouragement to find out for themselves...To make God not just there parents God, but there personal God...Middle ages aka. Dark Ages were named so for many reasons...The priests would preach from the pulpit the Bible, usually it was the said priests take on it, and twisted at that...
The King James Version of the Bible came about after the printing press was invented...That invention revolutionized the faith, printing the Word of God in a common tongue for the people to understand and grasp...Power began to slip out of the Church's hands, violence and martyrdom followed...Burning at the stake, false charges and 'trials' proceeded...The blood of those martyrs was the seed for the truth to be spread and for others to see and choose for themselves...
Fast-forward to a country like China (I went on a mission trip/teaching trip there at age 17 in 2001 for 2 weeks in the summer) China was a monitory at one point, and thinking for ones self was encouraged...Group of radicals overthrew and killed off all the royals, rounded up the scientists teachers, learned people, philosophers, pastors, and anyone holy of any religion, they were all forced to work on farms and become people of the land as punishment for free thought...Many who refused to do as this new communist form of government asked, were shot in the skull and made an example of...Fear ruled here, just as it did in the dark ages...Any religion and or thought etc...has an official PRC (people's republic of China) division for that said religion science, philosophy, etc...The government then can keep tabs on there people, and the thinking can be more uniform, in line, and in control...
If any of the people of China are caught and charged with not registering with the official division for whatever, they are shot and killed without question...Rooting out free thought before it even has a chance to sprout...Life to them is expendable, usable, and you are a number next in line and nothing more...I know this from first hand experience, having seen a beggar in China in the market place beg for food, and hearing a communist trigger happy guard yell at the top of his lungs...Fear crossed this man's face, and he ran but didn't get very far...He was shot about 20 feet away from our mission team...Some didn't see until after this happened...I saw in full frontal view, the man shot in the gut, bleeding out as a stuck pig, and no one helping him...Screaming though I was they told me to be quiet, I couldn't stop screaming until I was horse and my voice gave out...Tears stained my face until I couldn't cry anymore...Post Traumatic Stress night terrors occur without warning interrupting my REM sleep, and causing unresisting slumber...As lemony fresh, 3D image and surround sound as the day it happened...
The result of seeing this lunacy at age 17, when I was there to assist there people, and witnessed the ugly side of humanity...I descended into the depths of borderline anorexia, later at age 19 the Self-Injury/cutting would start...My underlining depression, turned into full blown psychosis on occasion...At LU, things were beautifully Godly and at other points maddeningly disjointed, where illogical thoughts my fantasy world, and realism bled unitedly as one until I couldn't tell them apart...Its only been in the last year of 2010 that I'm starting to see things for what they are, and that I'm climbing out of this swampland of despair...
Losing weight at the start of 2010, by first fasting for 7 days then slowing eating again in the correct manner, effectively resetting my hunger signals...Going from 263 to the present 225 for 5'8” (My borderline Anorexic weight was 130 for 5'8”) Walking 4 times a week for 1.5 miles, now the time of the walking has gotten better...Used to take 45 minuets now the same distance takes a mere 25...The walks are relaxing, and a workout despite being anywhere from 2.5 to 3.0 MPH of a walk, more as a slow jog...Clears my mind, elevates my mood, and improves my health...The mindset of not eating this or that and the false control I used to long for, still taunts and temps me...The goal is not giving up, nor refusing to ask for help when its needed...
At any rate, I'll stop this claptrap before I get carried away...*steps off soapbox*
I'm singing with everyone else, and as so often happens, I'm complemented regarding my voice and how pure it sounds and pleasing to the ear...I say thanks, and also say that it is for the glory of my Lord...Recently I've been wearing short t shirts as its been hot here in Virginia...the reactions I've gotten when I raise my arms and hands to my Lord in freedom and worship to Him have been negative...My voice makes me stick out in worship to begin with, add to that my scared and cut up arms raised to God and it causes raised eye brows...Usually, its not 'How can I pray for you?' its 'why do you maim the temple of God in that manner' or 'you are to pretty to disfigure yourself in such a way' 'you are lacking in faith, pray for more faith' and a whole manner of judgments passed, 1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. Matthew 7:1 I suppose they forgot that verse from Christ...
While attending Liberty University from 2002-2004 I was a Biblical Studies Major and a Government Minor...many of the classes attended were seminary classes...the way I've come to see the Word of God, is something that is truth, and the way in which those in the Church have through the ages distorted the truth to fit there agenda for control and power...Neglecting there role given by God, to seek there own personal gain...leads to there downfall and blindness of the assembly...There are men and women of every age the voices crying in the barren wilderness, what the truth is...To question what is being told to them, encouragement to find out for themselves...To make God not just there parents God, but there personal God...Middle ages aka. Dark Ages were named so for many reasons...The priests would preach from the pulpit the Bible, usually it was the said priests take on it, and twisted at that...
The King James Version of the Bible came about after the printing press was invented...That invention revolutionized the faith, printing the Word of God in a common tongue for the people to understand and grasp...Power began to slip out of the Church's hands, violence and martyrdom followed...Burning at the stake, false charges and 'trials' proceeded...The blood of those martyrs was the seed for the truth to be spread and for others to see and choose for themselves...
Fast-forward to a country like China (I went on a mission trip/teaching trip there at age 17 in 2001 for 2 weeks in the summer) China was a monitory at one point, and thinking for ones self was encouraged...Group of radicals overthrew and killed off all the royals, rounded up the scientists teachers, learned people, philosophers, pastors, and anyone holy of any religion, they were all forced to work on farms and become people of the land as punishment for free thought...Many who refused to do as this new communist form of government asked, were shot in the skull and made an example of...Fear ruled here, just as it did in the dark ages...Any religion and or thought etc...has an official PRC (people's republic of China) division for that said religion science, philosophy, etc...The government then can keep tabs on there people, and the thinking can be more uniform, in line, and in control...
If any of the people of China are caught and charged with not registering with the official division for whatever, they are shot and killed without question...Rooting out free thought before it even has a chance to sprout...Life to them is expendable, usable, and you are a number next in line and nothing more...I know this from first hand experience, having seen a beggar in China in the market place beg for food, and hearing a communist trigger happy guard yell at the top of his lungs...Fear crossed this man's face, and he ran but didn't get very far...He was shot about 20 feet away from our mission team...Some didn't see until after this happened...I saw in full frontal view, the man shot in the gut, bleeding out as a stuck pig, and no one helping him...Screaming though I was they told me to be quiet, I couldn't stop screaming until I was horse and my voice gave out...Tears stained my face until I couldn't cry anymore...Post Traumatic Stress night terrors occur without warning interrupting my REM sleep, and causing unresisting slumber...As lemony fresh, 3D image and surround sound as the day it happened...
The result of seeing this lunacy at age 17, when I was there to assist there people, and witnessed the ugly side of humanity...I descended into the depths of borderline anorexia, later at age 19 the Self-Injury/cutting would start...My underlining depression, turned into full blown psychosis on occasion...At LU, things were beautifully Godly and at other points maddeningly disjointed, where illogical thoughts my fantasy world, and realism bled unitedly as one until I couldn't tell them apart...Its only been in the last year of 2010 that I'm starting to see things for what they are, and that I'm climbing out of this swampland of despair...
Losing weight at the start of 2010, by first fasting for 7 days then slowing eating again in the correct manner, effectively resetting my hunger signals...Going from 263 to the present 225 for 5'8” (My borderline Anorexic weight was 130 for 5'8”) Walking 4 times a week for 1.5 miles, now the time of the walking has gotten better...Used to take 45 minuets now the same distance takes a mere 25...The walks are relaxing, and a workout despite being anywhere from 2.5 to 3.0 MPH of a walk, more as a slow jog...Clears my mind, elevates my mood, and improves my health...The mindset of not eating this or that and the false control I used to long for, still taunts and temps me...The goal is not giving up, nor refusing to ask for help when its needed...
At any rate, I'll stop this claptrap before I get carried away...*steps off soapbox*
