Mental Health Stepping sideways

demonapocalypse

Greenlighter
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I don’t speak for everyone when I say this but I have always adopted the mentality that “the only way out is through” but when I look at what I need to go through it just seems like an abyss of unfixable problems. But the funny part is that these problems aren’t actually problems, I just tell myself that they’re problems and this makes me super depressed. And I know that if I fixed these problems, the way I think would cause more issues to take their place. So in a way, the best way to deal with your problems is to realize that they aren’t even problems. Don’t go through them, go around them. Probably the one nice thing about existentialism is it makes this a pretty valid approach.
It feels like I’m trying to make a bridge to being happy in a matrix where everything is constantly changing, like I’m trying to navigate though something where direction doesn’t even make sense. I think the only way I’ll be happy is when my brain realizes that there is no direction and just learns to deal with and enjoy the turbulence instead of being convinced it needs to conquer something unconquerable.

Damn I’m so glad I wrote that last part, it’ll probably sound pretty retarded to other people but even though it came from my head I never even thought about it like that
 
I can see how sidestepping these perceived problems would certainly be easier in the short term, but are you sure that not facing them and fixing them wouldn't be better for long term peace of mind and stability? I used to sidestep my problems by literally moving to a different city or state here in the US. In the short term, it indeed did help me cope. But in the long term, the problems arose again and after awhile I just got tired of moving all the time and decided to face my problems head on. It wasn't easy but at least I could sleep well at night knowing my demons were put to rest.

As far as existentialism is concerned, I always thought this philosophy promoted the idea that life is miserable and meaningless and then we face an inevitable death. When I read one of the classic existentialist authors, Fyodor Dostoevsky and his work Crime and Punishment, his character commits an atrocity and at first tries to sidestep justice until he can no longer live with himself and confesses.

I guess the definition of what is a problem is subjective from person to person. What is one person's debilitating problem is another person's temporary obstacle to be overcome with perseverance and discipline.

So my question for you is this: What's your problem?
 
enjoy the turbulence
I like this. :)
Ride the vibe. Catchy. Next campaign slogan in the us?
I am more aligned with "structure" but this may be programming and in line with the matrix effect.
Without some structure I would have ceased to type these words or would have typed them through anothers fingers or something, idk.
Also chaos and impulse is a great place to be but then living in a chaotic environment may lead to more predatory incidents eventually (just musings, heard? ). Sure it's nature. But the sun does its thing reliably and there appears to be other "stuff" going on that may indicate "laws" at play. Again... not sure of anything.
So........ trying to find a comfortable balance in between has been a many year (decades) journey and possibly no closer to that goal than when I started.
I look at what I need to go through it just seems like an abyss of unfixable problems.
I am great (or terrible) at this. I make mountains out of mole-hills and I just try to ingnore them til I am in the proverbial corner. Sucks. My mind "knows" that anything can be worked out or "fixed" but if I act like it isn't there oh well. lol Yeah, it can get quite depressing. Where I don't even wanna go outside or work. I have been getting better at this for a few years but I gotta keep it in check by tackling an issue that is top in my head (the "worst" and try to work through to the easier ones. After a while momentum starts along with confidence again.
Are these feeling new or been going on for a while. Just that I may have always been this way now that I think about it.
 
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