Am I avoiding action because I’m afraid I will be ashamed when I face the results of my addiction? Am I avoiding action because I’m worried about what others will think?
02/24/10 4:03 PM
Well, I am starting to realize that I have been avoiding action in finding a job. Yes, I have been applying for various jobs but not as diligently as I could be. I haven’t modified my cover letter (a decent cover letter is critical in standing out when seeking corporate jobs). I have been lacking the willingness to humble myself and just take ANY job for the sole reason of thinking ‘I can do better’ or ‘I can get to where I need to be quicker’ if I hold out until that perfect job comes along.
I was unsuccessful at managing success before. I started using again and threw opportunities away. I need to accept the reality that there are always consequences regardless of how fucked up I may have been.
Today I changed that, however. I applied at a pizzeria/restaurant that is opening up about 40 minutes away from where I live. It will only pay $10 or $11 an hour but I need to humble myself and take the baby steps required.
How does this answer the question? I’m ashamed that because I have fallen so far that I am now reduced to the reality that, I am not entitled to anything. Image is NOTHING when it comes down to survival and facing responsibilities. I was previously of the mentality that it would be humbling/frightening to serve food to someone who in the past considered me a mentor.
NOTE: I used to be a Technical Trainer for a LARGE Internet Service Provider. I was responsible for teaching the necessary tools to call center agents not only so that the customer was properly serviced but so that the agents would have a solid foundation that they could build on and further their careers. Career Pathing was one of the functions of my job.
The aforementioned example is what immediately comes to mind. If more examples become evident by the end of the day, I will notate them. If not, I will move on to the next question.
02/24/10 4:03 PM
Well, I am starting to realize that I have been avoiding action in finding a job. Yes, I have been applying for various jobs but not as diligently as I could be. I haven’t modified my cover letter (a decent cover letter is critical in standing out when seeking corporate jobs). I have been lacking the willingness to humble myself and just take ANY job for the sole reason of thinking ‘I can do better’ or ‘I can get to where I need to be quicker’ if I hold out until that perfect job comes along.
I was unsuccessful at managing success before. I started using again and threw opportunities away. I need to accept the reality that there are always consequences regardless of how fucked up I may have been.
Today I changed that, however. I applied at a pizzeria/restaurant that is opening up about 40 minutes away from where I live. It will only pay $10 or $11 an hour but I need to humble myself and take the baby steps required.
How does this answer the question? I’m ashamed that because I have fallen so far that I am now reduced to the reality that, I am not entitled to anything. Image is NOTHING when it comes down to survival and facing responsibilities. I was previously of the mentality that it would be humbling/frightening to serve food to someone who in the past considered me a mentor.
NOTE: I used to be a Technical Trainer for a LARGE Internet Service Provider. I was responsible for teaching the necessary tools to call center agents not only so that the customer was properly serviced but so that the agents would have a solid foundation that they could build on and further their careers. Career Pathing was one of the functions of my job.
The aforementioned example is what immediately comes to mind. If more examples become evident by the end of the day, I will notate them. If not, I will move on to the next question.