How have I compared my addiction with others’ addiction? Is my addiction “bad enough” if I don’t compare it to anyone else’s?
02/22/10 12:48 PM
Sometimes I compare my addiction to other people’s the opposite way. I think to myself that my addiction was worse than others. I analyze and look at it from a technical aspect. I tell myself that folks who smoked crack weren’t as bad as me because the bioavailability of crack is less than that of IV cocaine HCL. I know that this is nonsense though because I have smoked crack and it delivers similar after effects as IV coke (the comedown, the chase, etc.)
I was never homeless, I never prostituted myself, I never did time in prison, I never mugged anyone or snatched purses but I truly know in my heart that my addiction was bad enough for me. The pain and hopelessness was powerful enough to knock me to the ground.
As I look at the list of ‘I nevers’, I feel some concern. They say that our ‘I nevers’ become a reality if we allow our addiction to progress through relapse. I just hope I never relapse again.
02/22/10 12:48 PM
Sometimes I compare my addiction to other people’s the opposite way. I think to myself that my addiction was worse than others. I analyze and look at it from a technical aspect. I tell myself that folks who smoked crack weren’t as bad as me because the bioavailability of crack is less than that of IV cocaine HCL. I know that this is nonsense though because I have smoked crack and it delivers similar after effects as IV coke (the comedown, the chase, etc.)
I was never homeless, I never prostituted myself, I never did time in prison, I never mugged anyone or snatched purses but I truly know in my heart that my addiction was bad enough for me. The pain and hopelessness was powerful enough to knock me to the ground.
As I look at the list of ‘I nevers’, I feel some concern. They say that our ‘I nevers’ become a reality if we allow our addiction to progress through relapse. I just hope I never relapse again.