Static

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Feelin' fuckin static
Thoughts collide midair smash bang
Somethin' overhead but I can't see
Sonic boom in my head I can't hear myself think
Time to get it together time to make a list
What can I should I do now I've got all day
What's on TV I need a job need to get the mail time for a snack
I'm checkin' my email no I'm too sexy for my body
So I need sunshine an exercise program a tan
I'll pace and smoke another another cigarette resolving to do nothing
Paxil shaped hole in my brain sucking thoughts away
Tiny bits pieces fragments of ideas
Eleven degrees of entropy cognitive confusion
Mental snowstorm
Static

 

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Stuck In The Doldrums....And The Music Sets Me Free

[FYI I merged these two threads]

Your indecisiveness, your uninterested apathy
It's the way you should be
Ignore your detractors
Those people who try to denigrate
Cuz those who don't hear its Call
Will never in this life be free
They call you and me LAZY
When we're trying to live our lives meaningfully
And it's damn hard
It takes strength, self-discipline & stubborness
But don't take it from me
Use your own heart as your compass
If you truly want TO BE

And I'm just writing some words here
What is the point......
Am I feeding my ego?
Nothing to do, nothing to be
No direction at all
There's no wind here to blow me
It's the mind-numbing doldrums
Floating on life's calm sea
But I am not calm I am impatient as can be
I want something I want to fulfill my purpose I want TO BE
Suddenly DJ Craze, "self-help mix", and it all comes back to me
You will grow stronger
And stronger
You have the confidence
And the knowledge
Of your supreme purpose
In life
(Then comes the kickass D&B)
God I so love the music
And it's the music that sets me free

 

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*bump*

I really like the first piece here. I took paxil / paroxetine for a while several years ago, so I feel a bond with this ex-Bluelighter.