starting to forgot what to do at night while sober.

while high I would just nod, or eventually just pass out.

nowadays I am TRYING to pick-up on new TV shows, places to go, things to do, etc. TRYING being the key word here. I do smoke a lot of weed and listen to music; which is great, dont get me wrong.. but I def. need to find OTHER things to do. I do get a DRUG message board to post on, so thats cool, right? ha.

I can talk about sobriety as I sit here and smoke weed. that make sense? I do have a script, so its cool? ha. well, as long as that dope is NO WHERE TO BE FOUND, then I am MORE THAN CLEAN in my eyes; that shit ruined my fucking life. shocked I am still alive w/ all the OD's, seizures, etc. GOD must want me here for a reasons, right? or maybe he just didnt want to take me away from the family; who knows.

sober has been better, I must admit. well, being away from DOPE I should say. still have occasional beer, smoke weed, maybe a xanny, etc. but NOTHING as if it was the before life where I almost killed myself daily. I have MONEY, steady job, steady LIFE, steady/trusting family. all things I never thought I'd have again.truly amazing what happen.

 

Yeah, I agree, it's important to have some other things in your life besides the drugs. I honestly do not see anything wrong with occasional usage but it needs to be kept in its place. The key is to lead a balanced life so that you have some other positive things going. If all you have is the drug, it will consume you eventually.