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Good to hear. Watch the benzo's, everyone is different but I doubt that I would be keep myself restrained with them.
I did feel a high the first time I got on Suboxone. However this was because I had used any opiates in about two weeks. I was put on them because I started fantasizing about getting them big time, probably the strongest craving I have even had. This was right at the start of me entering a therapy program. It faded quickly and it could have very well just been a feeling of relief rather than a "high".
Soon after I got on what was called a "pink cloud" and I rode on it for a good three weeks. Basically being clean felt fucking awesome! I had been on something almost every damn day for a decade. Most often a few beers and some bud, doesn't sound like much but it adds up over time. I would also used opiates and other stuff. So going through life without anything was great. Add in the fact that I was living in a new city and getting the help I needed and I felt really good.
Over time this pink cloud dissipated as being clean became more of a routine than a novelty. I think this is the most difficult time for many, because you aren't on a "pink cloud" but you are still adjusting to living without self medicating all the time.
Fortunately I had the resolve the go through this time and it got much much easier. To be honest, I had built up such a fear of being totally clean that when I actually did it I was surprised with how much easier it was.
I have just started my taper and its going very well, its going to be a very slow taper though. There have been several times where I have forgot to take my second dose or even my first dose and only remember to take it hours later. That is a good sign according to my doctor.
I noticed someone said that they had never heard a person using Subs say anything positive after 2 months, well than I will be the first. Suboxone has saved me from lots of pain and allowed me to get my life together. I do think that my higher does is effecting my motivation a bit, but the payoff is very much worth it.
Suboxone is a tool, the person still has to put in the work though. Its not easy, but with help of therapy, a true and honest desire to get clean/better yourself and medication it can be made much easier.
My major advice is to find a good doctor. You will find all sorts of opinions of how long you should be on it, what type of dose etc. Be wary of individuals who tell you that you are not "truly sober" on Suboxone. That is not their decision to make. I still go to 12 step meetings once and awhile to listen, but nobody knows I am on Suboxone. Its none of their damn business.