Start of Recovery....Just not till tomorrow!

8) So i figure It is time to really clean up my life. I have abandoned a lot of important areas of my life due to drug addiction and habits, that i feel is in due time to change. I want to go to school to get my Bachelors in Psychology. Start transition work to become female, as I am transgender (first appointment on Thursday) so we will see how that goes.

Those are just two very big goals I have in life so far with I am sure many more to come. I have little goals that I will set I am sure but right now its 1. Sobriety 2. Education 3. Occupation in the mean time ( UN-employed right now) 4. Gender transition.

I feel that writing a blog will somehow keep my thoughts in order as I write stuff down here on a semi regular basis, and maybe keep myself in check if i think about slipping. I know relapse is a very probable outcome in this whole matter but id rather just mess up on occasion then it be an everyday thing.

My Drug of choice is Heroin and just about all opiates. I have a big thing for psychedelics but don't have any interest in stopping the use of these as they are great teachers to better understand I feel providing you don't get lost in them.

I choose tomorrow night at 8 pm to be my sober launch date as I am going to have one hell of a last Horahh all day. and then boom cold turkey will I succeed? meh maybe but I am going to at least try my best.

Peace and people

 

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Having goals is good. I especially like the short term goals because they are more easy to reach and help build up my confidence a bit. If you can, try to set a small goal each day (sobriety probably being what would be best now), or even hourly. Long term goals are a lot easier to manage when you do little things each day to reach them.

 

Yeah I actually thought about that after I posted this. I will post a weekly goal to accomplish to give me that motivation. thanks for the tip Spork