Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
When I was diagnosed with drug induced schizophrenia 3 years ago my shrink gave me some Zoloft (sertraline) because I scored highly on the little depression questionnaire they give you.
I was already on several mediations (olanzapine, risperidone, lithium, oxcarbazepine, adderall, eszopiclone, propranolol, hdc thiazide, klonopin and librium) and always doubted the efficacy of SSRIs so I filled the script but never took any of it.
I didn't want to piss off my doctor since he was hooking it up with benzos and adderall so I told him I took it a few days and it made my schizo even worse. His response was "hmm yeah sometimes that happens.".
My thought was wtf? Why didn't you tell me? So I never took any and fast forward 3 years, I never tossed the pills. I was looking for motivation so I randomly decided to eat one. 50mg of sertraline which was the prescribed dose.
I actually had a very strong positive placebo for about 8 hours. So strong I almost convinced myself it was a real immediate effect....
Then the voices started again for the first time in over 2 years. The music hallucinations came back full force. I started feeling weird and dissociated again. It all came back to me: SSRIs can make it worse! Kicked myself in the ass.
It was really bad for several days. It's been about a month now and I still have more symptoms than before taking it, but not as bad they seem to be subsiding.
My schizophrenia was triggered by abusing LSD, DMT and plilocin so I guess it follows that my serotonergic system is damaged which then makes SSRIs an aggravant.
I don't understand the science but haven't looked into it.
I'm just curious if there is anyone else knowledgeable or experienced with this. Thanks.
I was already on several mediations (olanzapine, risperidone, lithium, oxcarbazepine, adderall, eszopiclone, propranolol, hdc thiazide, klonopin and librium) and always doubted the efficacy of SSRIs so I filled the script but never took any of it.
I didn't want to piss off my doctor since he was hooking it up with benzos and adderall so I told him I took it a few days and it made my schizo even worse. His response was "hmm yeah sometimes that happens.".
My thought was wtf? Why didn't you tell me? So I never took any and fast forward 3 years, I never tossed the pills. I was looking for motivation so I randomly decided to eat one. 50mg of sertraline which was the prescribed dose.
I actually had a very strong positive placebo for about 8 hours. So strong I almost convinced myself it was a real immediate effect....
Then the voices started again for the first time in over 2 years. The music hallucinations came back full force. I started feeling weird and dissociated again. It all came back to me: SSRIs can make it worse! Kicked myself in the ass.
It was really bad for several days. It's been about a month now and I still have more symptoms than before taking it, but not as bad they seem to be subsiding.
My schizophrenia was triggered by abusing LSD, DMT and plilocin so I guess it follows that my serotonergic system is damaged which then makes SSRIs an aggravant.
I don't understand the science but haven't looked into it.
I'm just curious if there is anyone else knowledgeable or experienced with this. Thanks.