Arguing, anger, violence; picking my hair out by the handful...
Yelling, alcohol, abuse; tumbling down the stair case...
Can't fight back, have to get out; bruising the cells in my arm...
Love, fear, panic; opening the cuts on my face... again...
Disillusionment, rape, instability; forcing springtime back to winter...
Problems, misunderstanding, miscommunication; bleeding everywhere from everywhere
I want out.
I need out.
I don't want to die.
Not like this.
I can't.
I refuse.
But...
I love the asshole.
Why do I love the asshole?
I know the answer, but it's unacceptable.
Why do I put up with it?
I know the answer, but it's unacceptable.
Because I'm unacceptable.
I deserve this.
It's my own fault.
It's the best I can do.
And so I write this,
Sitting on the couch,
Waiting for him to come home.
Waiting for history to repeat itself,
Hopefully for the last time.
Yelling, alcohol, abuse; tumbling down the stair case...
Can't fight back, have to get out; bruising the cells in my arm...
Love, fear, panic; opening the cuts on my face... again...
Disillusionment, rape, instability; forcing springtime back to winter...
Problems, misunderstanding, miscommunication; bleeding everywhere from everywhere
I want out.
I need out.
I don't want to die.
Not like this.
I can't.
I refuse.
But...
I love the asshole.
Why do I love the asshole?
I know the answer, but it's unacceptable.
Why do I put up with it?
I know the answer, but it's unacceptable.
Because I'm unacceptable.
I deserve this.
It's my own fault.
It's the best I can do.
And so I write this,
Sitting on the couch,
Waiting for him to come home.
Waiting for history to repeat itself,
Hopefully for the last time.