Schizophrenia is a European term for a state of mind. Schizophrenia did not exist until we invented it through our skewed perception and ideas about "Mental Health".
I agree. If you search my post history, you'll see I've posted very similar views many times.
The previous two posters have recommended counseling and possibly medication. I would personally strongly advise against either of those options.
When you use sacred medicines such as ayahuasca you are opening up doors to the Spirit realm, when you go into these realms unprepared there can be some pretty intense consequences. I personally went through several months of hearing voices much like what you are describing and seeing unusual things after doing several sessions of mushroom medicine without the proper guidance.
The reason I suggest avoiding counseling or meds, is because within the framework of our western society they are not at all familiar with the things you are going through. They will be quick to put a label on your condition, and it is likely they may try to prescribe you medication that would be counter productive to your own healing process. They do not know any better. If you tell a psychiatrist you took ayahuasca and describe your current state of mind they would be extremely quick to label you psychotic, and dope you up on all sorts of meds so they can make a buck.
Western medicine does not have a reference point to deal with things like this. I know many people who have been thrown in mental institutions or forcibly doped up on soul-killing medication as a result of their premature spiritual awakenings.
The Ayahuasca has started the healing process, now it's your job to finish it. The medicines reveal your own self to you, and now you say you think you are schizophrenic. That's just your own fear based programming trying to convince you that you are something other than a divine being of light. These voices can only affect you in a negative way if you allow them to, you are the master of your own mind. I say this as someone who has gone through very similar things in the past. You are responsible for your own healing process.
Using western medicine for a situation like this is a way of choosing a "Victim" mentality. If you want to do that, that's fine, go hand your problems to a psychologist and see what they do. They will only reinforce the false notion that you are a "victim" in this scenario and take your power away from you.
You have the power to go through this healing process.
Blessings and Much Love.
I'm sorry, but if the OP is experiencing suicidal ideation and voices instructing them to kill themselves, (whether its as a result of their ayahuasca use or not is irrelevant, imo), they don't need to "complete their spiritual awakening"; they need a short period on quetiapine and plenty of loving support until those potentially life-threatening thoughts cease.
Specifically, qualified professional support! Contrary to popular belief, not all psychologists are 'soul-killing westerner bastard mofos' (
) ya know? (Admittedly, most -not all- psychiatrists are LOL). I'm serious though, psychology is such a diverse and non-centralized field, you can almost always find a psychologist suited to your needs if you look.
There are
plenty of psychologists who are sympathetic to psychedelic-seekers and won't deride their beliefs or hinder their spirituality in any way-- in fact, their job has nothing to do with that at all. It has to do with helping a person to recognize which thoughts might lead to harmful outcomes, how to identify them and deal with them, and develop strategies for coping with those unusual/stressful states.
But primarily, a good psychologist will provide a tentative framework to represent various logical and emotional processes, so that you can better impose your will upon them. You lay a map over a territory that was previously hazy and nebulous so that you don't get lost in the bullshit of your own mind. You don't have to be brainwashed or anything, its just a strategy that be helpful in certain situations for anyone, specifically people hearing voices telling them to kill themselves.
Now, all this being said. I'm not really a proponent of psychology as a discipline, I think its kind of goofy. But when I was a teenager, my parents thought I had "drug problems" (mainly just occassional weed and mushroom use, at that point. 8)) and sent me to see this psychologist-- who just happened to be a really cool guy, and actually helped me to understand a lot about myself at a point in time when I knew very little.
So its really all about the specific person, and your relationship to them-- it may take several tries to find a psychologist you connect with, but if you need to go that route you can find success on that path if you try, IMO. But you can't just choose one random person and expect it to be work out, you have to find someone who is actually a caring, understanding, cool person, etc.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")