Black Spastik
Greenlighter
Male 68kg, then 23yThen experienced in casual taking not too great amounts of shrooms, cannabis, 2c-i, mdma, lsd, beer, ipomea seeds, kawa-kawa. There were big amounts of cannabis cookies and some stronger blotter.
I had no idea what to expect. Tried many smaller doses before with no or little effect, like the comedown of lsd. So I wanted to know what is really in that plant.
It was dark, a candle lit the place. Two friends were sitting with me around the round garden table. I informed them, what I was doing, but they did not have any information about salvia div.
I did my best to stay conscious as long as I could to inhale almost the whole gram in almost three big tokes using a nepalese chillum made out of stone and a gas torch lighter.
T+30seconds: After the tokes, the table bagan slowly spinning, with mine and my two friends torsos attached to it. I was completely (!) freaked out, as it seemed totally REAL!!! All three had been hurtlessly cut from their lower bodies. I had the lower bodies of my friends - and my own one - repeatedly under my torso. The table began to spin faster and I suddenly could feel that our table was installed on the top of a very big ferrys wheel, standing deep in the earth ground. Like the gondola in the best place for overseeing the city where the ferrys wheel stands. Only that here, on the top of my wheel, we could stay on the surface of earth and reality as or "tables" are normally mounted to the place on top of this "wheel" in our lives.
T+45s: All of sudden again, the rotating gondola, where our torsos where attached to, began rotating towards the floor according to the slow rotation of the now no more motionless ferrys wheel! I saw that the next gondola was exactly ours, coming out of the floor as our torsos were forced to hit the ground with machine power and pass through it, leaving only bones remaining as the flesh was ripped off by diving in the ground. I heard a clackering sound like some high pitch double bass, coming from the big machine as it began it's true job.
It looked and felt cruelly and glass-clear real! Pure horror on me, extreme anxiety. No idea what was happening, long time ago forgot what was smoked.
I felt like I was chained on a feeder band that visibly ended in a meatgrinder. Lost all my flesh. Passing through erth and rocks. After the fear- and painful procedure i was physically and mentally completely ground to pieces and spreaded in the whole universe, including inner worlds, a lot of strange places with their own rules.
-Was in a giant underground cave with many plants and vegetation, waterfalls, glowing worms and in the wall there was a unbelievable giant cathedral built in with those big colorful gothic church windows... I was able to spy through one of the upper. Inside, a king and the inner circle was feasting.
-Was also in outer space, it was just beautiful and undescribable well and greatly great while travelling out there with no sense of self.
-Eventually rode also through abstract physical and geometrical concepts, felt those but without body. They were awkward, strange, mind shattering, lucid (!), inducing fear, making sense, nonsense, all between. Exhausting weird stuff to deal with.
-In another very short moment, that I can remember, maybe, I think, it was just one of the hundreds of my pieces, was a shooting star, speeding over the Sahara desert. I saw myself flying over the Sky from the view of a member of a tribe, sitting and dancing near a tent lit by a Fire. Camels caravan night stop. One of the dancers also saw me, pointed at the shooting star and said towards me without words: He's cheating, that's not ok, as he, the dancer himself would practice such things without cheating, so should he (my visible piece) in the sky.
-There were guaranteed more unsaid words during the action-rich minutes I was away. The last ones, I can really good remember, where at the end of the journey.
I fell from above in a dark place between all vibrations.
It was a dark Lake in the "nirgendwo" ("nowhere").
Still, silent purplish dark water -or quicksilver or such- seemed to float flat in a darkpurplish space. I saw it from above, falling nearer. Four drops fell before me and formed a square with one corner on the upper side, lik a 'pik' card, when they dropped in the surface.
They made concenrtic circles widing out and overlapping those of the others. In the middle, there was a non-vibrating square, like a carpet.
I fell on this carpet to a female person, just sitting there in front and headed to me but wearing a "big hoodie cape" so i couldn't see her eyes.
She seemed as old and wise as time, but seemed also young and very, very attractive.
I said, wordless, just with my brain, intimidated, nervous and fearful, (because I thought, i was dead... or so far away, i can't find back in my world ...or it goes on and on again in those spheres and feelings of vibration and strangeness) please let me go home. (bitte lassmi gaa) and she answered the same way: yes of course. I wanted to offer a promise that she would send me back in my world: that i'd never do this again. She heard but ignored or just not commented this.
T+10minutes: And there I found myself sitting in front of my buddies, holding the big stone chillum. I was back and couldn't believe it. They asked, what was happening, said I sat upright the whole time with empty eyes, holding the chillum (with the remains of the gram of 30x extract.) They wanted me to pass the chillum 'round. I declined, wanted to save them. Said them: It was not special, nothing to see therein. Very confused, acting normal as linke nothing happened. The changed topic fast. xD good for them, obviously it wasn't the right time. But it was my BIG time. I knew now. Accepted the greatness of plants and teachings from nature. Also there are far more adventures to undertake with plants if one knows how and is not afraid.
There were far more situations and images to describe in this journey, but no words match.
It was not the last strong salvia meeting, but i never saw her again.
->What do you think? Who was this attractive ageless wise female hallucination?
The next and last time with salvia goddess for me so long was just plain f*cking horror with rotating circles and spheres, cutting me and the world. I saw I was hurting time, space and beings while doing this mostly because I smoked a huge amount without knowing, what I'm doing.
(What do do if one wants a good result: Set purpose, greet and thank the plant, greet the goddess of the plant, greet all directions, prey for good healing, say hello to all surrounding entities, say hello to up, down, center, sit upright, breathe to the belly, prey for protection, blow smoke to the plants to 'clean' them before use them, loving thoughts to the world, beloved ones and so on. you will know if you are interested an truly inform yourselves. You don't have to be a believer, just follow common sense and rules of plants. ...and of course exercise. I have to learn chanting^^)
But over all it was really "interesting" for me as a horror fan.
Two days later, I had to hospitalise myself for one week because of a tick bite, that infected me with early summer meningocephalitis. (I like a good walk through the woods.)
I talked with my own inner world and this was severe. While I had fever, i hallucinated pink fat multi-limb ganeshas. I almost died at the hospital.
Now, more than 10y later, i know better how to use plants. \,,/ ^^ \,,/
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