Jodorowsky71
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- Jul 30, 2017
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Hi all. I'm a regular visitor and reader of the forum, however have only posted a handful of times. The thread I'm currently writing is one of anxiety and my end of the road.
I've used heroin (+ other opiates) for 5yrs now, developing, of course, a heavy addiction in that time. Along the way, I also picked up a reliance for crack cocaine. The former started out with just smoking (I'm a UK user, so was No.3), however turned into injection about 3yrs into the habit. Most worryingly to me, is that I'm still injecting crack along with it; I'm deep into a speedball habit. I'm not at all bothered or hooked by smoking crack cocaine, but rather only IV.
For about a year n a bit now, my opiate habit has been stabilized by a weekly prescription of Subutex, which works wonders in the event of not obtaining any heroin. In fact, in the above five year addiction period, I did actually stop using for about a year, thanks to the Subbies. I stopped both the H and the cocaine. A one-off unfortunate event, led me into using again, and since then have found it SO DIFFICULT to stop again.
The worry is, is I don't think stopping the opiates is too much of a problem, but rather its mix with crack as an IV'd speedball is what has me in its grip. It's dominating my life and I want to shake it off so much now. Before the pandemic, I was due to finally start some in-clinic therapy, however the global shit-show of COVID put a stop to all that.
I'm not sure what replies I'm seeking here; I guess any hopeful accounts of folk who've lived with a raging crack habit (IV more so) and managed to overcome it, along with how difficult it actually ended up being. I feel like I'm never going to shake it, no matter how much I want to! It's pathetic
I've used heroin (+ other opiates) for 5yrs now, developing, of course, a heavy addiction in that time. Along the way, I also picked up a reliance for crack cocaine. The former started out with just smoking (I'm a UK user, so was No.3), however turned into injection about 3yrs into the habit. Most worryingly to me, is that I'm still injecting crack along with it; I'm deep into a speedball habit. I'm not at all bothered or hooked by smoking crack cocaine, but rather only IV.
For about a year n a bit now, my opiate habit has been stabilized by a weekly prescription of Subutex, which works wonders in the event of not obtaining any heroin. In fact, in the above five year addiction period, I did actually stop using for about a year, thanks to the Subbies. I stopped both the H and the cocaine. A one-off unfortunate event, led me into using again, and since then have found it SO DIFFICULT to stop again.
The worry is, is I don't think stopping the opiates is too much of a problem, but rather its mix with crack as an IV'd speedball is what has me in its grip. It's dominating my life and I want to shake it off so much now. Before the pandemic, I was due to finally start some in-clinic therapy, however the global shit-show of COVID put a stop to all that.
I'm not sure what replies I'm seeking here; I guess any hopeful accounts of folk who've lived with a raging crack habit (IV more so) and managed to overcome it, along with how difficult it actually ended up being. I feel like I'm never going to shake it, no matter how much I want to! It's pathetic