"Songs that make us remember"

[Jennyfur_Karma_Kin]

There's songs that make us remember
That we listen to when we're alone
We'd never tell anyone
That we listen to them still
Or in some cases
That we ever listened to them

That's why I'm found sometimes
Cross legged on the sofa
Chain smoking
Softly singing along
To some heart breaking ballad
Sometimes with a tear in my eye

It's not because my heart is broken
Sometimes it's just the memory
Remembering that there once was a time
Where my heart was open to receive
And to give love

I'm closed up tight up at the bud now
Like a flower blooming in reverse
Able to exist without living for someone
Yet painfully unable to connect
With only years old memories to recall
When thinking about what it was like
To be in love

It's not that I'm broken
I'm not defeated
I just made a conscious decision
That I don't think love is for me

But sometimes when I'm alone
I'll sit and play the songs
That meant so much
While remembering with smiles
Sometimes with sadness
That once enough I was brave enough
To love shamelessly
Without the fear of being hurt

I'm proud that I once fought with love
But I live without it
And that's ok too
For so many years of my life
I was a warrior for love
Now it's just a song or two
That I'll play in private moments

Never regretting
Just remembering
Just for a little while.

 

[HdoubleODeezy]

Nice, and true (at least for me) also

 

[tocooperate]

having spent the last hour and a half chain smoking parked on the driveway listening to songs sappier than I could reasonably admit to.. I know the feeling of bittersweet visits, an aquired but fuffiling taste