Son Of a Bitch Everything's Retarded!

winston red

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Not exactly in the mood for writing right now so I'll keep this as short as possible.
My addictions give me a confort zone where I can live with my problems. As far as I understand, the best way to get sober is to substitute your addictions with something else. Like other people who love you, friends, family or the feeling of worth you have for yourself.
From all of the above I only have a mother whom I try to avoid. Have any of you been in a similar situation? How do you quit drugs when there's nothing else to fall back on?
 
I find making friends extremely difficult.
I'm pretty much in the autism spectrum when it comes to forming relations with other people. The few friends I ever had had to go out of their way in order to get close to me. The sad thing is that I honestly don't understand what was in their mind when they decided to befriend me, or what exactly makes it so dificult for others to get close to me.
Anyway, my friendships never seem to last more then a year.
 
I find making friends extremely difficult.
I'm pretty much in the autism spectrum when it comes to forming relations with other people. The few friends I ever had had to go out of their way in order to get close to me. The sad thing is that I honestly don't understand what was in their mind when they decided to befriend me, or what exactly makes it so dificult for others to get close to me.
Anyway, my friendships never seem to last more then a year.

I find it difficult to make friends as well, I get very anxious even around my good friends which I have been friends with for 5 years. Maybe the friends you have now see something in you that you don't see. I have always believed its better to have a couple of good friends than lots of friends. There is something for everyone to live for and some just have to search harder than others. Some find it and the rest of us are made out to be fools. Keep your head high, search for your goals and enjoy the journey.
 
social situations... the bane of my existence. outside of that im inclined to follow your intuition on the implications of a "sober" life ;) i will say though, the ballad of destruction composed by my adherence to addiction was accepted allot less readily than my absolutely toxic emotions. i just have to remember there is a world out there i have to live in, regardless of whether im drowning with every breathe. watch it burn or burn with it, there are no fine lines so its just a matter of taking a stance and bearing with it. this isnt a message of hope, for which im sorry.. but it is possible to make a choice to never look back. have some faith man.
 
i cant fall back on my parents at all.......for several reasons......

i have friends who are in the same boat as me, and we converse and support each other......

na / ca / aa / other meetings....

bluelight can be great support if used properly.....

counseling / therapist / etc

take up hobbies or pick up something you have always wanted to do....

lastly, work on changing ur lifestyle to something healthy......that way you can take pride in it......proper sleep, healthy eating, exercise......
 
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