something's got to change

[rewiiired]

Not so sure I'm just
mimicking the dead anymore.
Every day I say I've never
felt this distant before,

and I don't really want to
be so cold and calloused,
I don't want to be
depressed and pessimistic

and I know I've got
only myself to blame,
but I can never seem to
kick my ass in gear.

I'm too secure in the familiar,
too afraid of everything beyond my
circular well-worn paths
of least resistence,

but I find I hate it all,
I'm sick of it all, I want
so much to knock
myself off orbit.

Intelligence,
structure,
adaptation,
cooperation:
these are all nessesary
to survive and grow,

this I know,

but my rebellious urge
has never been so strong,
never once have I felt
so stunted, so imobilized,
I've never felt so spiritually,
mentally claustrophobic,
my mind's never been so
suspicious of itself...

We'll find each other, then,
and we'll create a better way:
we'll learn from history, forsake
evolution for revolution today

because I feel so certain
something's got to change
and it doesn't end here,
but it's got to start with me.

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

I'm so feeling this right now! Another brilliant write rewiiired! The internal churning sick with lack of change but resisting the change nonetheless.

Got me from the first two lines!

Not so sure I'm just
mimicking the dead anymore