Something must be wrong in my head.

[Eazy]

Hi all, overall I am a very happy person, but I seem to have problems in my head. By the way I am 16 years old

I feel that these problems have been here all my life, im pretty sure its anxiety but I have deppressive moods quite often. Some days I just cant change my mind on certain topics, like these days im pretty deppressed due to my report card coming in and im failing math again, im deppressed because once again im poor as fuck and dont have a job .

I dont always fall into these mind traps, but it often happens when I sit on the computer for hours and im left in my thoughts.

As to the drug relation to this, I believe they havent done much, for sure being dependant to cigarettes doesnt help, and smoking weed and drinking might not be the best helpers, but I do these activities with moderation and they dont make me that deppressed, I can live without these substances. (well..cigs not quite but if i raelly wanted to quit i could)

I've thought about talking to my mom about it, because I know my mother and my father have problems with anxiety and stress.. and it could maybe be hereditary? Im not blaming on them though, just an idea though..

I've never thought about committing suicide, I love life and I there is much for me to discover in this wild world, I just hate the mental space that I visit quite often.

Peace

 

[rollingstoned!]

Depressed due to report card? I remember that shit. The key is to know you did your best in school and therefore there is nothing bad that can happen if your report card is bad because you did your best.

Try not smoking, drinking, or weeding until you do well in math. And do not get left in your thoughts. Don't get lost in your thoughts. Deal with them.

 

[Eazy]

The bad part about the math is..im still in grade 10 math (im in grade 11), i failed last year due to being dumb and not doing anything in class. This year I try to work but everytime I try, I fail a test and therefore me being me...I decide to shut down and go in "fuck this shit" mode.

 

[RandomGuy123]

The bad part about the math is..im still in grade 10 math (im in grade 11), i failed last year due to being dumb and not doing anything in class. This year I try to work but everytime I try, I fail a test and therefore me being me...I decide to shut down and go in "fuck this shit" mode.

You should really try to cheat throughout school rather than try if you really can't get math, that or try really harder.
Your choice :/.
You sound like a smart dude though so I think you'll be fine if you realize you can't do it.

 

[tommy34]

As much as your teachers would like you to think so, maths en school for that matter is no huge deal. Try your best but at the end of the day, if you struggle with maths then you probably won't use it much throughout your life. I found when I was at school I didn't do well, I convinced myself I was stupid. I now blame some of my failure on depression. Now that Im older an my mind has developed more, Im making up for it by doing a bridging course at uni. Try to not let it get you down. If you have these feelings now, get help. I wish I did when I was your age. Good luck

 

[Eazy]

Thanks, and @ Tommy34, I wont be using math much in my future because I want to teach english and history. I do not see how trigonometry etc will help me out lol.

Cheating for me is not an option because I will not feel satisfied, my grades in math are between 40s and 50s...i just want a damn PASS ! (60%) haha

 

[sekio]

First off, quit smoking, that's not going to do you any good at the age of 16. Tobacco is to be respected, not rolled into little machine-processed cigarettes. Toxic I say. Awful.

More importantly, don't give up on your schooling. There are way too many post secondary institutions to apply to that may well be a better fit for you.

 

[purple_cloud]

Honestly, I think the anxiety and depression you are feeling comes along with being a teenager. I know at the time I thought it was more than that, but it's not. And not having a job at 16 isn't the biggest deal --- school should be your first priority. Sucks not having extra money to buy what you want, but you will eventually, and that's why people get jobs over summer break.

If you are staring at the computer with wandering thoughts, get up and walk away from it. Throughout college, I often found that if I didn't need to be typing something, or on the computer doing the homework itself, I often concentrated best when I didn't have the internet at my finger tips. You'd be surprised how much this helps.

Perhaps find a math tutor? To be honest, I was never really all that bad at math, so I never understood why people freaked out so much over it. I don't use the complex stuff at all in daily life, for the most part. You say you are "dumb" but "not doing anything in class." Lazy and dumb are VERY different, and you sound like you are just being lazy about it. You're going to encounter more classes you don't really want to be in even when you get to college, so learn now how to just turn everything else in your head off and get it done. Personally, I feel dumb when I give my all and still perform poorly at something...but if I'm not trying hard, or barely at all, then it's nothing more than laziness, and certainly not something I'm going to feel dumb about. Sometimes there are other issues going on stressing you out, and bad grades do come here and there...but you don't want to get trapped in high school because of this one.

In terms of drugs...quit cigs NOW, while you can, because I am struggling like hell with that and really need to do it for my health...wish I stopped at 16, which is close to 8 years ago now. I smoked pot at your age, I didn't drink. Although I don't recommend using any drugs at your age, don't let yourself smoke/drink/etc before you finish your math homework. It will make your thoughts wander more, and not help.