someone save me

[beanpoophead]

I wish you could all know
why I do this to myself
why every weekend I push
each weekend I go further
every time that bottle is in my hand

and most of all
I wish I could know
cos I don’t know
what’s pushing me
what makes me. . .
destroy myself

im so afraid
God doesn’t even know
how much it hurts to be me
for these moments
where I cant even squeeze
tears out of my blind eyes

I was so glad to see you
to know that things
between the two of you
were just ok
but here I am
pulling your halo down

only you and another
think that I can actually do this
kill the driving force
that’s killing me
no one else believes a word
cos I’ve lied so many times

this is my story
of drunken lives pushed together
to make me who I am
all the times I tip the bottle high
and let go of all the inhibitions
I have buried deep inside
and if I just loved myself for one moment
maybe I could put this all behind

but im afraid of falling in love
with being the person that I cannot be
the girl with a smile, that is real
without the angst, without the gin
without the broken heart
that no one caused, but me

someone save me

 

[Dekloren]

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

Remind me if I ever meet you to hug you for at least an hour!

 

[froggygirl]

and most of all
I wish I could know
cos I don’t know
what’s pushing me
what makes me. . .
destroy myself

but im afraid of falling in love
with being the person that I cannot be
the girl with a smile, that is real
without the angst, without the gin
without the broken heart
that no one caused, but me

those two stanzas describe myself... that hit me pretty hard...

Nicely put.

 

[FixXxer]

omg... is all i can say....
this is a GREAT peice... really...
i noticed we havent talked in awhile.. im here
keep writing. please.
i promise you'll be fine