Some advice please, drugs seem to have strange effects on me

[Steven325]

First of all I know my amounts are ridiculous but at the time it was fun and I just didn't think about it too much, also I wasn't the only one who did these things so I assumed it was fine.. but I'm not here to hear stories like "your own fault" I know that.. just looking for some good advice/insights please.

2005-2013 HEAVY pot smoker (3-5 grams of the strongest stuff daily). Never had any problems except bad thoughts that started to happen after 5 years or so (if you had this you know what I mean) for the past 1-2 years so I mostly quit weed (just recently though)

2011 I did mccp once (bad pills). I hallucinated pretty hard from it, seeing peoples faces in different colours etc.

A month later I did mdma for the first time (600mg dosage combined with a LOT of weed). I hallucinated REALLY hard, people who say mdma hallucinations are fake never seen the world as I did obviously.. people turning into aliens and halo's everywhere (it was amazing though)

Month later again same dosage mdma with a lot of weed. Hallucinated 10x more than the last time, I couldn't even walk anywhere on the party because I had no idea where what was, the whole world was a pool and everybody looked like anonymous people. It was amazing though.

I proceeded to do more mdma every 1-2 months, mostly 400-600mg. After a while I noticed hallucinations would stay even when sober, especially when I would smoke pot, peoples faces just turned green and yellow and I kept seeing light flashes that weren't there and some weird snow (especially on white walls)

Stupid as I was, this didn't hold me back and I kept on doing mdma and smoking tons of weed. After 1-2 years the halluciations became too much and I completely stopped using all drugs except weed. I still frequently hallucinated when high but not so much when sober. This was about 1 year ago. It got better so I thought maybe it's safe to try something again.

In November we had some fake acid (safe though, multiple people took it before I did altough I'm not really sure what it was, we suspect an NBOME). Nobody really felt anything (group of over 20 people) they just laughed a lot but I had the craziest trip in my life (FAR more intense than shrooms) and hallucinated so hard, altough it was AMAZING. I'm still wondering how this was possible.

This year I had some anxiety issues (never had this before in my life, I was/am always really relaxed and no issues handling drugs apart from the hallucinations, altough I really enjoyed those). I did mdma 3 months ago and was anxious on the comeup, but once I was rolling it was great as usual (just took 150-200mg this time). However after 1 hour I started to get the most intense leg pain I've ever had (I had some leg pain from time to time before that too, sober). My friends all do a lot of ketamine and I read it dulls pain.. so I took a little bit.. biggest mistake so far. I spent the next 2-3 hours screaming and crying from pain.. no clue why though because mentally I was feeling great.. this pain lasted for over 20 hours afterwards.

2 Months ago a friend who also suffers from anxiety had some ghb and he swears by it.. so I took some, felt pretty decent, after 3-4 hours I started to get insane pain all over my body (anxiety attack I hope.. but it was so bad I spent 5 hours crying again and screaming) I also started seeing double.

So now I'm wondering was this HPPD? Is there something else wrong with me? My body reacts so strange on drugs.. and altough I'm fine with not taking anything I really just wanted to have some fun festivals this summer.. did anyone ever hear of these kind of issues, will it go away and is it safe for me to try something else?

I was thinking of trying out 2cb, but scared I might end up hallucinating again for months..

Sorry for the long post, this has been bothering me for years now. I completely stopped smoking weed 2-3 weeks ago and my visual snow and hallucinations are practically gone. The last time I smoked I got really bad snow again.

I also have frequent leg/arm pain (had really bad rsi too) and they tingle a lot when I sleep for example (this happened a long time after my drug use and I don't think they are related, I think it's something with my blood flow but the doctors have no idea)

 

[IbizaJoe]

Hello Steven

Your story has lots of similarities with me. I started abusing pure MDMA krystal and Ecstasy tabs last november, I did this for 2-3 months and stopped.

Every time I would do MDMA, I would take 0,5-6grams. My usual dose. First few times I did not notice any strange effects. Then I started noticing that every comedown I would have very heavy hallucinations when I combined MDMA with weed.

These hallucinations are nothing sort of pure delirium. I would see non-existant animals running around the house for example, I would see absolutely weird/strange hallucinations and even converse with some of them. People morphing into strange geometrical patterns etc.
Not even amphetamine binges when I've stayed awake for days + sleep deprivation have given me such hallucinations.

I've used lots of different drugs in my lifetime, but nothing has produced such vivid hallucinations. I've also thought that pure delirious hallucinations like that are only possible when you drink alcohol for few months in a row and stop cold turkey. Of course I used lots of different drugs during that period, but the only pattern that triggered them I noticed was MDMA + heavy weed smoking during the comedown.

I stopped doing all drugs after these hallucinations became very disturbing. I literally felt my brain was frying when I was perceiving them.

First of all: You are fucking with your serotonin receptors. Don't do "fake acid" and other stupid shit like that: you are playing in very dangerous territory and I personally feel one might end up insane if continuing this. Any drug that affects your serotonin will probably only prolong your recovery if you even want one. Stop weed also if you can if it triggers you HPPD.

I did my share of MDMA, acid combined with too much weed + amphetamine and ended up HPPD I have still not recovered.

Also the tingling /numbness in your body was almost nightly visitor for me just few months ago: I would wake up almost every night that some part of my body my arms of legs would be numb/tingly. I stopped all drugs including smoking and started exercising + low carb diet and I have not had these tingles going on for a month. I certainly feel it is a blood flow issue too, but might be related to brain chemistry. Your brain is a complex organism and even simple things like dopamine will affect blood flow.

I would also like to add that after being off from every other dope for 2-3 weeks, smoking weed would also trigger my HPPD to a very severe level. I stopped smoking weed also after noticed this effect.

 

[BenzoHelpNeeded]

There are many enzyme pathways used to metabolize drugs and deal with the chemicals produced by drug metabolism. It is quite possible that you are missing or deficient in one or more of those enzymes.

For example, I am deficient in an enzyme that deals with metabolism of opiods. As a result, very small amounts of opiods affect me very strongly. A Tylenol 3 makes me higher than a kite. A 5 mg Vicodin incapacites me. Makes me extremely dizzy, extremely high. Oxycodone in the smallest RX doses causes symptoms of OD such as respiratory suppression.

At the same time, "Hosptal" benzos such as Versed require doses that would drop a draft horse to induce the desired level of sedation, and I have never taken benzos recreationally or at above prescribed doses. They do have the effect for which they are prescribed, but I do not experience any sort of high from them.