Hey all - well, it’s time to start looking at my benzo use a little more seriously and this forum seems more friendly for advice than, say, Reddit. Sorry if this is lengthily, just trying to get a sense of what I’m in for - my panic attacks have started to increase with family and school stressors adding, so I can’t tell if my heightened anxiety is due to stress or actual withdrawal symptoms manifesting.. a little history,
I started taking 5-10mg Valium, unprescribed but from a pharmacy reliably (I’m lucky like that) Used relatively infrequently in 2021 in response to anxiety from, you know… the world. In general
The past year I’ve been keeping careful track of my dosage because I started learning more about the dangers and wanted to taper myself down.
Most recent history to give a sense of my habit- three months ago, I took 150mg over the 30 day month, two months ago, I took 90mg spaced over the month 31 days, then last month I took 65mg over 31 days - I know people take way more than this regularly and have varying degrees of WD symptoms. This month I have only taken 1/2 Xanax to help me sleep during some family drama nights.. somehow I thought that would be better, but today I’ve experienced strange panic attack symptoms - all the classic benzo WD symptoms. I got a little scared, so I figured I’d look for some advice in the forums -
My questions are, obviously, the normal question - am I gonna die? Logically, and from my investigations around the forum, I feel like I’m kind of in the clear from risk of extreme WD complications, but my panic attack is trying to convince me otherwise. Second question, am I a candidate for controlled tapering, and what should I expect or set for myself as parameters?
Be gentile with me, thank you for any and all advice, experience, tips and tricks because I am just a very smol girl in a big scary world and want to keep somewhat functional so I can keep my 3.9 gpa in college.
Thanks guys
I started taking 5-10mg Valium, unprescribed but from a pharmacy reliably (I’m lucky like that) Used relatively infrequently in 2021 in response to anxiety from, you know… the world. In general

The past year I’ve been keeping careful track of my dosage because I started learning more about the dangers and wanted to taper myself down.
Most recent history to give a sense of my habit- three months ago, I took 150mg over the 30 day month, two months ago, I took 90mg spaced over the month 31 days, then last month I took 65mg over 31 days - I know people take way more than this regularly and have varying degrees of WD symptoms. This month I have only taken 1/2 Xanax to help me sleep during some family drama nights.. somehow I thought that would be better, but today I’ve experienced strange panic attack symptoms - all the classic benzo WD symptoms. I got a little scared, so I figured I’d look for some advice in the forums -
My questions are, obviously, the normal question - am I gonna die? Logically, and from my investigations around the forum, I feel like I’m kind of in the clear from risk of extreme WD complications, but my panic attack is trying to convince me otherwise. Second question, am I a candidate for controlled tapering, and what should I expect or set for myself as parameters?
Be gentile with me, thank you for any and all advice, experience, tips and tricks because I am just a very smol girl in a big scary world and want to keep somewhat functional so I can keep my 3.9 gpa in college.
Thanks guys
