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Solo MDA - (brutal, unforgiving) introspective healing session

flyingbanana

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i don't normally post reports, but i thought i'd share this one since questions on MDA vs. MDMA creep up all the time, i might as well add to the body of experience.
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solo - (brutal, unforgiving) introspective healing session
7/22-7/23/05
90 +/- 2mg MDA.HCl
T+0 ~ 10:35pm

setting: alone, wanting to have a relaxing evening and look into issues in my head

T - 2h - was a large meal, did not seem to effect absorption though

T+0h - ingest bitter-sweet crystals in minimal amount of lemonade

T+20 min - alert! PEA dream-vision creeping in, tingling, warmth

T+30 min - it's on

slight naseua - had to vomit. interesting, this never happens on mdma, but it seems to be a property of mda.
it was difficult to find what music i really wanted to listen to - kept switching all over the place, from rachmaninoff, tchaikovsky, melodic space post-rock, fast psytrance, chilled ambient - i stuck with chilled ambient (like shpongle) in the end, partly because some of these musics (classical) were bringing me to such emotional depths that were too much to take in, without dealing with what's going on in here

this stuff is very intense, emotionally - the emotions aren't colored by bliss like how they would be on mdma, they are presented to you, raw, as they are. very introspective, personal experience. internal dialogue comes easy and is often brutally unforgiving, interrogation style. negative issues, problems are felt physically - in the stomach, as a weight (which i think is a normal experience for people dealing with issues? transferring negativity into the body to avoid dealing with it)
i tried to get rid of the weight but only dry heaving and no relief - psychosomatic - work through the weight...

T+3h - intense part coming down, but still impaired and heightened - this could be the part ppl describe as "trippy". not as emotional, but still "feels good"

T+5h - still coming down, peaceful/contented feeling. went for a refreshing walk somewhere here, watching the beautiful night sky (full moon!), contemplating the intense part

T+6h - largely down, still residual (sparkle-vision, high heart-rate, urinary retention)

it's going into T+7h now, still residual, slight jaw clenching, inability to sleep but still feeling very peaceful/contented, tingly head

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my thoughts on MDA vs. MDMA (all samples are verified pure):
i won't go into basic effects similarities (heart rate, nystagmus, jaw, etc.)

Duration - like they said on erowid, it all depends on where you keep count! the "generally mdma-like" portion of the experience ends at around the time you'd expect it to, but then you get an added bonus (T+3h to now in the report) of an entirely unique? mda portion. not emotional/connections, just plain chillin, like a daydream - don't know how else to describe. visuals also become more pronounced at this later stage

Visuals - same mdma "visuals" are present (enhanced aesthetic appreciation, beauty, sparkle-vision) but there also seems to be more action in the eye wiggle? things are more blurry than from mdma. this leads to "replacement phenomena", your brain filling in blank spaces - mistaking trees in the distance for curtains, things like that. definietely not at all like the visuals of traditional psychedelics (which are actual distortions like swirling, fractalization, etc. though the "replacement phenomena" does occur sometimes on tradtional psychedelics)

Potency - MDA i believe is slightly more potent than MDMA (HCl salts). 90mg of MDA was like 100-120mg MDMA.
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T+7h - ready for sleep! can already tell it's gonna be a little difficult because of stimulation (which is another difference from MDMA, on which i can fall asleep easily T+6h), but don't want to mix in other chemicals into the experience to sleep

Addendum:

deciphered from scribbled notes:
"there is a profound emptiness deep inside every one of us
it comes from our ego - our individuality. that is the sacrifice."
 
Your description of the nature of the MDA visuals I can relate to. When I used to do lots of pills there were "trippy" pills around that were said to be MDA... I have no way of verifying this, but I did get fairly long term visual distortions due to the brain filling in stuff I wouldn't quite "get" even after not taking those pills for a while any more... such as mistaking letterboxes for people when walking/driving along the street and the like.
 
yeah, and i can see how people might start to freak out if they are in a negative mindset and start seeing bodies and whatnot. but overall, i think if you've experienced things like mushrooms, then the mda visuals shouldn't be overwhelming at all.

i should also add that at
T+12h was when i could say that i'm baseline (heart rate back to normal, urination is easy, no psychological effects other than afterglow) and that sleep that day was impossible, but slept a good 12 hours that night.
 
Ximot said:
Your description of the nature of the MDA visuals I can relate to. When I used to do lots of pills there were "trippy" pills around that were said to be MDA... I have no way of verifying this, but I did get fairly long term visual distortions due to the brain filling in stuff I wouldn't quite "get" even after not taking those pills for a while any more... such as mistaking letterboxes for people when walking/driving along the street and the like.


I have also experienced this phenomenon........... the seeing people when it is in fact a letter box.........and yet this can be even a month after dropping last time..........quite bizarre really.

Always gives me a good laugh though.
 
Fantastic report. I am strongly reminded of my last MDA experience after reading yours. I'd also describe my trip as brutal and unforgiving. At the time I was dealing with a lot of personal issues, and these were strongly manefested in the body. The cosmic bliss of MDMA is replaced with brutal, raw, intense emotion...sometimes blissful but sometimes not.

I also agree that MDA seems much more potent than MDMA...contrary to what is reported in PIHKAL. I took 110mg of MDA hcl last time and I was blown away hard. At this dosage, the visionary element of MDA was quite apparent. Very waking dream/brain movie like as opposed to the sensory distortion/enhancement of the 2C-family. Then at T+3hr ketamine was injected. When I returned 45minutes, the room was flowing in a most LSD-like way.

I decided after that time to try just 80mg of MDA next time. With MDMA, I tend to choose the 'normal' dosage range...usually 120mgand occasionally a 40mg suppliment at t+ 1 1/2hours.
 
morninggloryseed said:
Fantastic report. I am strongly reminded of my last MDA experience after reading yours. I'd also describe my trip as brutal and unforgiving. At the time I was dealing with a lot of personal issues, and these were strongly manefested in the body. The cosmic bliss of MDMA is replaced with brutal, raw, intense emotion...sometimes blissful but sometimes not.
Interesting, I think I finally figured out what was going on that one time I was rolling a couple of years back. I haven't rolled all that much before (maybe ten times, maybe less), but that one time it must have been MDA. Lots of personal issues, pretty rough actually. I know exactly what MDMA feels like though, i have had MDMA crystals a bunch of times before. It's usually all loved up and I can't even think about dealing with my problems while on it.
THANKS for the great report!

crOOk
 
I find that MDMA produces visual effects (and hallucinations at very high doses), but it lacks any actual visuals/visions.

MDA, however, is very different. I get some of the most beautiful color splashes that I've ever seen, especially with closed eyes. I could watch the visuals for hours.

The visuals are accompanied by a divine erotic feeling. I was turned on as if the most beautiful woman in the world was naked in front of me waiting for me to lay her on a bed of roses in a candle-lit room. ..And I was around no one. I have never experienced visuals that sureal.

MDMA causes people to socially express what I just described, and it usually comes out in touching and such. However, a drug (MDA) that can make you feel the way I described above while laying on the ground with your eyes closed, is a pretty amazing drug!
 
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