Sobriety is driving me insane...

So it's been over a year and a half since I got into this shit way too deep... I've been sober for about 2 weeks and I've never been more depressed. I smoked up the rest of my pot and the only thing left is Adderall... but do I want to be awake? I'm definitely a downer type of person. I'm too high-strung as it is, so Adderall is kind of silly for me to take recreationally. And I cannot miss my psychiatrist appointment on Tuesday.

Fuck it, Adderall down the hatch. These interminable 2 days are going to drive me insane... I cannot take being sober for this long. (I don't count marijuana and Klonopin as drugs) ... No opiates for 2 weeks. Now I'm eating the Adderall I bought and saved for a rainy day... although, it isn't raining and it's nearly 3am... so much for cliches.

 

i can feel your pain....

 

me too.

I havnt used heroin or opiates or stim's in almost five months man, it's hard. Luckily I take suboxone which helps a little bit (well I guess actually I take opioids every day, but you know what I mean, maintenance ain't the same).

 

I was sober for almost 5 months until the other day went to the Dr and scammed him out of percocet after having a bad day now wishing that I hadn't of done that. Was doing so good. Well back to the drawing board and have to start over from day 1 which sucks horribly. Wish me luck.

 

i wish i could scam my doctor out of percocet... the most i've gotten is T3's... boo hiss... but they're great for WDs/tapering...

 

I know the feeling...just keep thinking that eventually everything will come together and you will be high and happy!