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CfZrx said:
By day 3 I always got pretty excited too! As long as the memory of withdrawal is recalled without delusion that the high is worth the horror that follows, I am cool :)
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exactly! The wd are almost enough to keep me from going bsck. So excited t start working on getting my life back
 
CfZrx said:
True, and do you find like me that you keep running into morbidly obese therapists?
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No, but that is super weird!!

My wife works with in a hospital (in our neck of the woods, rural US Midwest), and she says that the huge majority (get it?) of her patients are obese. Whenever the hospital has to replace stuff (wheelchairs, toilets, beds, etc.) now they always buy the "bariatric" models. Yeah, we are some big people, us 'mericans.
 
simco said:
No, but that is super weird!!

My wife works with in a hospital (in our neck of the woods, rural US Midwest), and she says that the huge majority (get it?) of her patients are obese. Whenever the hospital has to replace stuff (wheelchairs, toilets, beds, etc.) now they always buy the "bariatric" models. Yeah, we are some big people, us 'mericans.
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So fucking true. The guy that saved my life was mad overweight. He compared his addiction to chocolate cake with my addiction to opiates. It helped me realize we all aren't too different. Cut from the same cloth but maybe I'm a sock, and he is the thumb on a glove. I dunno.
 
Hey, hope everyone's doing good. This is my first post so bare with me haha. I'm glad most if not all of you, at least in this thread have chosen the sober route, for whatever reason. I'm curious though, does anyone feel comfortable sharing their real reason for living sober? My advice to anyone having struggles is find something healthy to do that fills that void, makes you happy, gives you peace of mind, gives you hope, makes you stronger, and makes you WANT to be on the straight and narrow. Something to live for.. A reason to be sober.. a reason for the word "sober" being a good thing. A great thing! Being sober should make us so proud & happy because it's one of the hardest things in life to do, and you did it! That means you are mentally stronger than a lot of people in this world. And recovery is possible, sometimes you just have to ask for help, and believe with all your heart that you WILL recover to how your brain worked before. Before the pattern that developed into addiction. If you can remember that, you can get back to that. You just have to create a new pattern. You will need to make changes that you never even thought about before. Think about how you lived before you ever even tried a drug or alcohol. There is always hope, keep that alive and nothing can stop you from getting where you want to be. If you want it bad enough you can make it happen. Anything is possible in life if you focus 100% on it. True happiness does not come from worldly possessions, it comes from within. We all need to work on changing our brain patterns and the way we think about life & ourselves. Our mind is more powerful than anything. That is the one thing no one else can control except you. I believe everything in our life happens for a reason (providence not consequence). We're all different, all over the world & its obvious that all of us go through many completely different experiences in life from others. But what would they mean if you didnt share them? Why would anyone keep them a secret like they never happened. That doesnt do anyone any good..it doesnt help anyone else & and we all know how bottled up secrets can make u feel. So why not use our experiences to try to help other people, and in turn you would also be helping yourself right? Lets make OUR journeys mean something. You can put that to anyone & anything in life. Good or bad. You share what you know right? You pass it on. If we didn't do that our world would not even be close to where it is today. Just think, your testimony alone, could change some kids life forever. Set them on a different path and change the course of their life forever & start sharing what you taught them, causing a chain reaction.. maybe even end up changing the world one day. Whats your purpose? Sometimes we have to face the facts and realize that there is a generation after each of us that needs our help. Would it not be worth it to try to save as many kids as we can from addiction.. even just one person? We all go thru different things in life but i think the point is to help eachother & share those experiences with others right? make our life mean something.. So we didn't just go through everything for nothing. Thats really the whole point im trying to make. We need a 'reason' for being sober. Because it makes it worth it, & it really is worth it. If your really struggling to stay sober than you need to decide right now what side of the fence your on and commit. This world is full of lies and deceptions and its easy to fall into a trap, if your sitting on the fence pretty soon you might start making little compromises, until you fall back into your old routine & you'll find yourself somewhere that temptation can take ahold of you.. If no one says anything than we'll fall for anything. You see what i mean we have to tell people about these kinds of dangers. And be serious, bec it's no joke. I know we each have free will and have to make our own choices but why not do the right thing for once & do what we can while we can, to show people the whole truth. Give your journey a purpose! If everyone did that we could change the world... Just speaking my own truth. Thought i'd try to give some general encouragement, just sparked up in my mind. If you ever need/want to chat, hit me up :)
 
^^^appreciated. Just hard to read without paragraph breaks.

Lots of craziness in my life right now. Maybe I need to do some introspection.
 
Hey guys! It's been a while, but I'm going back on the sober train. Messed with strong iv opioids for seven months. Of course I got addicted in no time since opioids always were my vices and I work in health care, so have free and easy access.
I went through withdrawal 3 times but always got back on the stuff a few days later, so now I went on naltrexone.

The first two days sucked, I had no energy at all, stomach cramps, goosebumps and generally felt like shit, but now side effects are almost gone and I feel great! Minimal cravings although I have opioids right in front of me every day. I know that medication isn't the final solution but it gives me some time to reinitiate all the things that helepd my stay sober in the first place.

I'm so thankful for naltrexone, can't understand all the bad talk about it. OK, it might have some side effects like every drug, and forcing someone on it is nothing but physical and mental assault, but if you desperately want to abstain but slip up again and again, give it a try!
 
Mccoolum, thank you for your post. It really made me think. I was on the good side of the fence for a long time but now im not. I do have a purpose for staying straight and its my daughter. Shes gonna need me in a couple short years and perhaps i can save her from what ive endured in life. I was trained in recovery that your experience can help others and ive gotten the chance to do that. I am willing to help anybody with my experience if they want it. Just thinking of my daughter makes me happy. She lives very far from me but i plan to move out there turn of the year. Shes so much like me it scares me. So many bad genes. Addiction, mental illness a host of genetic medical problems. I wanna guide her if one of these befalls her. I personally dont believe you have to do it for yourself and doing it for other people doesnt work. I love my daughter so thats motivation. Im coming around but i still hate myself. Anyway, thanks again for posting

Van Weyden, good job man. Ive been on naltrexone befre and its good stuff. Keep at it man!!
 
[MENTION=407440]mccoolum[/MENTION], thanks for the cool post...though as others mentioned, it's much easier to read if you can break stuff up into paragraphs.

As for why I'm trying to live sober--whew, that's a complicated one. Just a couple shards:

First, in theory I don't have any real interest in being "sober" or "clean" in any complete way. I want to get heroin out of my life, but if weed or booze stuck around, that would be fine. But I've found, the more serious I've gotten about quitting heroin, the less interested I am in *all* drugs. So I haven't used anything since quitting. But that's just a by-product of the process. I'm glad for it, don't get me wrong. I feel better. But sobriety was never my original goal. It just turns out to be more tenable than the sorta in/sorta out that I was doing before.

As for why I'm trying to quit dope, there are basically two answers. First is that I want to be a good husband for my wife. Marrying her was (seriously) one of the only good decisions I've ever made. Dope was making me be dishonest with her... driving a wedge between us. It was impossible for me to keep using and give her the honesty and intimacy she deserves (and that I promised to give her).

Second reason: towards the end I just got scared shitless by where dope was taking me. I'm in my mid-40's with a good, very straight job. Until 3 years ago, I'd been living a reasonably full life (though with serious depression). But I was finding myself shooting dope with hookers on stale cigarette-smelling couches of a friend of a friend. I OD'd twice...revived both times by narcan, but still. It got to the point where shit like this was the norm, not the exception. If I kept going, I was going to die. And if I'm going to die, I don't want it to be that way.
 
[MENTION=191140]VanWeyden[/MENTION], are you on oral naltrexone tabs, or did you go with the vivitrol shot? I'm interested in naltrexone and have been weighing the pros and cons of each of these.

in any case, congratulations!
 
Thanks for the well wishes captain and closeau!

Mccoolum - reason for quitting -- health problems :(

Chest hurts when I do cocaine so that's out. Abused MDMA back in the day and ended up with brain zaps for a week. Pretty much abused anything I could get my hands on.

I have acid reflux as well and I get a burning in my stomach so alcohol is out indefinitely.
Which also rules out anything caustic (that's a bunch of drugs) + I'm quitting opiates. Thanks to some advice I got on this forum a year ago I've decreased my opiate usage from 3-5 times / week to basically none at all.

Figured I might as well quit all drugs while I'm ahead. Best of luck to everyone trying to get sober.

I'm looking to get into the medical field, I want to be an RN
 
For me, I'm quitting for a few reasons. It's ruining many relationship with my lady whom I love dearly. It's causing me to default on bills. Heroin has taken many friends from me, in all sense of the word. I miss my family. I miss structure, I miss not being dependent on a substance just to get through the day
 
pmaczilla said:
For me, I'm quitting for a few reasons. It's ruining many relationship with my lady whom I love dearly. It's causing me to default on bills. Heroin has taken many friends from me, in all sense of the word. I miss my family. I miss structure, I miss not being dependent on a substance just to get through the day
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You can do it man! One day at a time.
 
The testament that it can be done is proven by we that have been able to quit. I never thought I could quit for any length of time. I am living proof that a chronic relapser can make the changes necessary to quit.

I quit for many reasons, but the main one is that I had lost my moral compass. I have always been a good guy, but I could no longer live with the guilt and shame for the things I had to do to stay high.
 
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