Sober 3 weekends in a row… And totally bored.

[CaramelMind]

Hey

Me and a pal are endeavouring to test our resilience for 4 weekends. 4 weekends without drinking and what drinking leads to, primarily cocaine. The cocaine isn't on my mind until I've had a drink, you know the score.

Didn't think i was an addict until i realised that not drinking and getting fucked up on a weekend is absolutely boring. Im sitting here now on the 4th saturday of being sober having done an array of things that i'd normally do anyway, and normally just as well (maybe not on a sunday morning). I'm not socially inept and an anxious mess when sober like i need to be out of my mind to function, but i never realised how powerful of an outlet being drunk and coked up actually is, for me. Monday-Friday i have always been straight and sober and i enjoy being sober monday-friday and i respect it almost because it keeps me grounded and it makes that high on the weekend sweeter, i could never be constantly out of my mind.

It's like there is a build up of pressure inside me. What is the point of standing in a bar or a pub and not drinking? It's like going to a gym and doing only push ups or going into a toilet and taking a piss on the floor. Ya know?

I am aware that I'm stating the obvious, thats what a weekend is for for most people right? The only reason to not get fucked up in the week is because of work the next day and i hate not being on form at work and being hungover. I am more hateful when sober and less tolerant of belligerent idiots (when in a place full of those idiots, mainly drunk). I'm like Bill Hicks all night. I understand that this is drivel to all of you and i do believe there is a question in here somewhere to you all…

guess its, what do you think?
What do you think about being totally bored and dissatisfied with a sober weekend? And your experience if you've done it. I don't even feel better for it i don't think.
I feel unfulfilled and almost like it's wasting precious 'being fucked up time'. Spend all week straight as a dye and earn my right to lose control a bit. I am not rewarding myself it feels. I am bored.

Rant over for now.
Much love.

P.s Can't wait to have two wraps of cocaine and some beer next weekend.

 

[Tyrielle]

I have exact same problem couldnt word it better but my demon is the meth pipe.
Livin for those bender weekends with the lads

 

[Oxy_Ghost]

That's one thing I'm afraid of, except for me it's pills. The weekends are great but once the week rolls around than I get pretty bored and I'm usually withdrawing so that's even worse. But I know that when I do quit that there is gonna be many many boring days and I hate being bored. There's nothing to do where I live, I don't go anywhere and I don't hang out with other people except my fiancé. We get our stuff and go home and get high. I'm not the partying type or anything like that but I used to have a lot of fun and hangout with a lot of friends and now it sucks and idk what im gonna do when I quit. Possibly move to Charlotte or something where there is actually things to do.

 

[TheLostBoys]

Once you get a taste of your drug of choice & it fills in the boredom gaps, its really hard when you quit.

You need to fill the void with something else, whether its excersising, playing sports, etc......

Its even tougher if you have a gf & that person is still partying while you're trying to quit. Same goes for friends that party on weekends or whenever & you're trying to stay on the straight & narrow.

Good Luck!

 

[pasha]

basic drug discussion is for drug specific harm reduction questions. it's certainly not a place to seek validation for something you've probably already made up your mind about.

if it wasn't this way, and your post was absent of drug glorification, i would happily send it over to our sober living forum. clean up your post of any triggering content and feel free to shoot it there.

closed. pm any questions.