Fornax55
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- Jun 17, 2010
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I seem to have developed anhedonia as the result of polydrug abuse over the last decade.
I've had a few sober stints, the longest completely, dead-ass, no-drinking-no-smoking-nothing sober stint I've had was about two weeks. My "abstinent" periods, i.e. not using my problem drugs (heroin/opioids) have varied between 6 months to two years, albeit I generally use kratom during those periods.
So basically constant dopaminergic stimulation for like 10 years. I felt great during that 2 week period, that was about 4 years ago now. Recently I've been trying to sober up and I just feel like absolute shit. Like, dead tired, can't find pleasure in anything, can't get up the energy to go to the damn washroom half the time (whatchu know about pissin' in the sink baby)
So I'm interested to know what anyone's done to help improve their symptoms of anhedonia. I'm working on building up an exercise routine, starting with just 2-3 pushups because that's pretty much all I can muster, and short walks.
"Time will heal all." I know that, but I have a life to live here. In fact the last 2 years I've never done drugs to get fucked up. I do it because they allow me the energy and focus that I need to accomplish my goals. I dunno if it's the 'norm' for someone to go score fentanyl so that they can hit the library, study, and buy materials for building a garden but that about sums up why I use drugs. I'm in school, but it's only once a month at an intensive. Which is tough because usually I end up relapsing or doing something to keep me functional during those few days which throws a rock in my progress.
Anyway sorry this isn't about me, it's about anhedonia. Anyone have any experience overcoming it? In my decades of research I've settled on a few supplements that seem to help; one is rhodiola, which is fucking amazing and always has been. I've ordered some Tongkat Ali and forskolin, both of which seem to have some promising effects.
I also took Sam-E for my first time today and that seemed to perk me up pretty good - just enough to actually start some new routines, give myself something to focus on.
Anyone else wanna share their experience?
I've had a few sober stints, the longest completely, dead-ass, no-drinking-no-smoking-nothing sober stint I've had was about two weeks. My "abstinent" periods, i.e. not using my problem drugs (heroin/opioids) have varied between 6 months to two years, albeit I generally use kratom during those periods.
So basically constant dopaminergic stimulation for like 10 years. I felt great during that 2 week period, that was about 4 years ago now. Recently I've been trying to sober up and I just feel like absolute shit. Like, dead tired, can't find pleasure in anything, can't get up the energy to go to the damn washroom half the time (whatchu know about pissin' in the sink baby)
So I'm interested to know what anyone's done to help improve their symptoms of anhedonia. I'm working on building up an exercise routine, starting with just 2-3 pushups because that's pretty much all I can muster, and short walks.
"Time will heal all." I know that, but I have a life to live here. In fact the last 2 years I've never done drugs to get fucked up. I do it because they allow me the energy and focus that I need to accomplish my goals. I dunno if it's the 'norm' for someone to go score fentanyl so that they can hit the library, study, and buy materials for building a garden but that about sums up why I use drugs. I'm in school, but it's only once a month at an intensive. Which is tough because usually I end up relapsing or doing something to keep me functional during those few days which throws a rock in my progress.
Anyway sorry this isn't about me, it's about anhedonia. Anyone have any experience overcoming it? In my decades of research I've settled on a few supplements that seem to help; one is rhodiola, which is fucking amazing and always has been. I've ordered some Tongkat Ali and forskolin, both of which seem to have some promising effects.
I also took Sam-E for my first time today and that seemed to perk me up pretty good - just enough to actually start some new routines, give myself something to focus on.
Anyone else wanna share their experience?