I am off tomorrow and Tuesday. But I have a lot of shit to take care of. And a Suboxone doctor appointment on Tuesday. So I can piss and hopefully get my prescription and jump up and down. I hate my therapist. He's such a useless old bastard who uses me to buy him drugs. Fucking asshole. I need a new therapist but I think we are codependent. He had the nerve to call me while I was at dinner and curse me out because I went to dinner with my friend after work instead of going and buying him drugs. WTF. I don't even know how it got like this. I said a lot of mean shit to him. I think he thrives on being hated by women...
Anyway i am going to sleep for about 5 hours and then go get on the line for government cheese. That is all.
Someone please help me... I want heroin so badly. And cocaine. It's driving me nuts and it's like 3 days from now. I may even middle some transactions just to get a little taste... which I hate doing.
I don't know if I want to be here anymore. It feels good to socialize with normal people again though. I am so lonely. I want a boyfriend. I know I have a girlfriend but I am missing the attention of a man. Sigh. I am an idiot.
Anyway i am going to sleep for about 5 hours and then go get on the line for government cheese. That is all.
Someone please help me... I want heroin so badly. And cocaine. It's driving me nuts and it's like 3 days from now. I may even middle some transactions just to get a little taste... which I hate doing.
I don't know if I want to be here anymore. It feels good to socialize with normal people again though. I am so lonely. I want a boyfriend. I know I have a girlfriend but I am missing the attention of a man. Sigh. I am an idiot.
