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Thou

Thou

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I'm working like a dog to save the 1000 dollars passage to scale the country and arrive at the bridge de cisco in cali.
There, I'l make my miraculous plunge, with my footnotes steadfast gripped in horrified fingers as I plunge to head off all of you who will see the same fate, 50 years from now,

At the time, my heart will be full of love and art, and devoid of hate and disgrace.

I'm sorry, for those that truly care.
 
<3 Thou this is horrible news to read. Is there any reason you are feeling like this? Is this a feeling as of lately or something that has been constantly building? <3 I am always here.
 
I care about you as well, Thou. I also respect your decision as it is your life. If you are not 100% about this, or even if you are and would like to talk about it and the whys, I am here.
 
I've always felt like this.


I appreciate your sympathy though it is not necessary.

Words are inarticulate, clumsy, and flawed.



Just wanted to explain where I went.

If you truly care, unbiasadly critique my short story in the words workshop no. 7 I believe. I'll need that info before I go.

It will be a few months so you'll be rank with my insubstantial rubbish and candor for a while, yet still.



Just typing from the heart before I nestle up with Vonnegut to guide me gently off to sleep.


I love you all, as I do everyone.
 
I think the reason you're choosing such a far away point to do it from is a clear sign that something inside of you is holding you back and convincing you not to go through with this.
I really hope your mood can switch back to good again before any mistakes are made. You know that's all it takes.
You know you'ze my homeboy.
 
Sorry for making this thread it was really a bit childish of me, and I"m sorry if I've concerned anyone.

I was very drunk when I made this which always makes me suicidal, assuming I have to talk to my loveless alco/workoholic mother.

I'm am not at this time addicted to alcohol, and seldom use it.


She's leaving for 3 days I just found out which should allow some healing/respite time.

Thanks for the love.
 
Oh, so thankful that I read this last post. <3 You have lots and lots of stories in you and you are just beginning the journey of writing. Stay and write for us. We need the storytellers. <3
 
Thanks folks.

Expect a number of years to scrap the Burroughs affect.

I'm still going to kill myself, luckily for you it won't be for 20 years.

Or luckier for me?

I can't tell.
 
Jackie, you are a true brethren.

Neither condemning nor approbating.

You're a realist and I appreciate that.

For one of you, who come forth, and tell me in general terms what life's all about:

I'll consider it, but be wary.




He says it in true god terms, either or. Either you're this, or you're that. Which in the past I saw as folly, but these days, in this case, at least, I see wisdoim.

Yea or Nay. Let the question resonate through the halls of every congress in the room....
 
Thou said:
For one of you, who come forth, and tell me in general terms what life's all about:
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It's not a book or a dvd, it doesn't have to be about anything in my opinion. And that some times can be the beauty in it for me. Neutrality.
 
Oh! I was so sad when I read your first post and so glad when I read your last post, Thou <3

I know the feeling, I'm very glad you didn't act on it. That might be a good way to actually prevent suicide, choosing a far off point/place and telling yourself "if I still feel like offing myself I will do it then". 99% of the time, you won't still be set on it by that point in the future. It's much like delaying a drug craving.

I would like to read/edit/critique your story Thou :)
 
I too am tremendously relieved to hear that you're sticking around Thou <3 Please reply to my PM on facebook when you get a chance, I'm here for you brother.
 
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