JerryBlast
Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 2, 2017
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So, I'm trying again... Goodbye Opiates
I don't know how many days I am clean now 4.. maybe 5. I seem to have a very difficult time quitting drugs on a permanently because of the fact that they are actively around so many places... So many people I know do drugs of some sort and the ones that do not are a completely different scene of people that I am not used to but have no problem interacting with... It just generally makes me feel out of place. Anyway, I am registering because as an emotional being I hope the support here can strengthen my chances of allowing my mind to overcome this deep and treacherous temptation that pulls me in so vividly.
-This time I am quitting Heroin and Oxycontin.I was doing about .1-.2 a day for roughly a week or so and then bumped up to .3-.4 pretty steadily after that. Things started to get really hard when I was getting 10 - 20 Oxy's at a time when I didn't have the H. Eventually I had enough for a Ball of H and while sharing that lasted probably a few days and then it was back to .2 again until the next ball... I don't know how much heroin I have done but I have only smoked it. I have drawn the line due to my intense urges to want to start shooting. I have barely any weed left but I have somenone-the-less, it helps a lot... Just a mental note really... Hopefully, you all can provide some information on getting through the worst bits... My hardest part to get through right now is the intense restless leg syndrome. It has kept me up for days and even though I can get to sleep this is driving me absolutely nuts. To the point, I am just laying there for hours awake at night until I pass out for an hour or two to be awoken by limbs that need to over-extend, shake, and constantly move...
I am going to do this though, I have a bright future ahead of me... My emotions are kind of trembling at typing this because of how stressful things have been... I haven't lost it all. I did spend most of my money. I put myself in a position where I am no longer mobile anymore and I am lucky I didn't lose my place to live. Thankfully, I quit before that became an issue. I can do this I really have to do this. I am going cold-turkey My recent intake was maybe 3 grams over a period of a week... I was up to about half a gram a day. I have thought about using psychedelics to therapeutically help alter my mind in a way that directs it away from drugs like heroin, meth, coke, and extasy. However, I feel like even though I have good experience with the psychedelic world, ultimately that is just creating one problem while fighting another. Yes, it would help the urges and the mindset in the moment but would I really achieve the mental state I need to be at when I don't have said psychedelics to have my back... This is why I am going cold turkey... I don't want to have to kick a drug that I am taking to kick another drug and risk getting addicted all over again to something new. This is really tough guys, however I do really want a natural remedy for this restlessness. I need some really good sleep before I go crazy >_>
I don't know how many days I am clean now 4.. maybe 5. I seem to have a very difficult time quitting drugs on a permanently because of the fact that they are actively around so many places... So many people I know do drugs of some sort and the ones that do not are a completely different scene of people that I am not used to but have no problem interacting with... It just generally makes me feel out of place. Anyway, I am registering because as an emotional being I hope the support here can strengthen my chances of allowing my mind to overcome this deep and treacherous temptation that pulls me in so vividly.
-This time I am quitting Heroin and Oxycontin.I was doing about .1-.2 a day for roughly a week or so and then bumped up to .3-.4 pretty steadily after that. Things started to get really hard when I was getting 10 - 20 Oxy's at a time when I didn't have the H. Eventually I had enough for a Ball of H and while sharing that lasted probably a few days and then it was back to .2 again until the next ball... I don't know how much heroin I have done but I have only smoked it. I have drawn the line due to my intense urges to want to start shooting. I have barely any weed left but I have somenone-the-less, it helps a lot... Just a mental note really... Hopefully, you all can provide some information on getting through the worst bits... My hardest part to get through right now is the intense restless leg syndrome. It has kept me up for days and even though I can get to sleep this is driving me absolutely nuts. To the point, I am just laying there for hours awake at night until I pass out for an hour or two to be awoken by limbs that need to over-extend, shake, and constantly move...
I am going to do this though, I have a bright future ahead of me... My emotions are kind of trembling at typing this because of how stressful things have been... I haven't lost it all. I did spend most of my money. I put myself in a position where I am no longer mobile anymore and I am lucky I didn't lose my place to live. Thankfully, I quit before that became an issue. I can do this I really have to do this. I am going cold-turkey My recent intake was maybe 3 grams over a period of a week... I was up to about half a gram a day. I have thought about using psychedelics to therapeutically help alter my mind in a way that directs it away from drugs like heroin, meth, coke, and extasy. However, I feel like even though I have good experience with the psychedelic world, ultimately that is just creating one problem while fighting another. Yes, it would help the urges and the mindset in the moment but would I really achieve the mental state I need to be at when I don't have said psychedelics to have my back... This is why I am going cold turkey... I don't want to have to kick a drug that I am taking to kick another drug and risk getting addicted all over again to something new. This is really tough guys, however I do really want a natural remedy for this restlessness. I need some really good sleep before I go crazy >_>
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