Im here again after years of being lost in a whirlwind of life's more peculiar lessons. Tonight i feel the heavy nostalgia breathing down my spine maybe thats why im writing tonight. When i loaded up BL i got an eerie and tingly feeling all over. I used to visit for the reports and humbling philosophical discussion. I feel as if my intellectual brain is trying to stretch out of a deep sleep.
Ive been so lost, confused and busy lately that i cant say when the last time ive had any real fun. Just work and life grinding away at me. Have pretty much given up on the idea of friends or even just socializing. I find it all very exhausting even around people i used to be very comfortable with. Most must think im pretty strange for the acrobatics i will sometimes perform in order to avoid social situations. It feels as if a different kind of numb has moved in to my mind. I have allowed a new darkness in without realizing.
Though the past few years haven't been at all bad, lots of ups and downs self-doubt and personal growth. In fact i would bet they will be difined boldly in my overall person. l couldn’t even begin to imagine where id be without the two most influential people on me ever the last two years. It was through loving them that i was able to begin the long journey to love myself. But at the same time it feels like the loss of these people has compounded my fears of getting close to other people. Glad i got to say it finally
Ive been so lost, confused and busy lately that i cant say when the last time ive had any real fun. Just work and life grinding away at me. Have pretty much given up on the idea of friends or even just socializing. I find it all very exhausting even around people i used to be very comfortable with. Most must think im pretty strange for the acrobatics i will sometimes perform in order to avoid social situations. It feels as if a different kind of numb has moved in to my mind. I have allowed a new darkness in without realizing.
Though the past few years haven't been at all bad, lots of ups and downs self-doubt and personal growth. In fact i would bet they will be difined boldly in my overall person. l couldn’t even begin to imagine where id be without the two most influential people on me ever the last two years. It was through loving them that i was able to begin the long journey to love myself. But at the same time it feels like the loss of these people has compounded my fears of getting close to other people. Glad i got to say it finally
