SO I'm freaking out...should I taper.. AGAIN

[wooger]

Anyways, I was a hardcore alcoholic (like a bottle of vodka a day) for ages and I managed to stop on christmas eve for around a month, but used benzos a couple of times during that month.

Anyways, stupidly I thought I could just have one or two drinks, which resulted in me drinking like a bottle of vodka again every day for around a week or so

anyways, yesterday I only had 4 cus thats all we had and now Im sober again to realise I have to stop... again.

Havent had any tonight as I thought I wouldn't have any withdrawals as i was only drinking for like a week.

Anyways, my blood pressure is up (150/100) and im feeling really anxious and my palms are a lil sweaty.

anyways, as I was falling asleep, I kep't getting that muscle jumps you sometimes get as you're falling asleep... I was wondering if this is like a mini seizure or something?

anyways sorry for the long post but I have no beer or benzos in the house and can't get any until tommorow am really anxious and feeling kinda scared... should I start tapering tommorow tho? and if so, for how long?

 

[Cyc]

I don't recognize the unit of measurement.

How much alcohol is in a "bottle"? (fl. oz, ml, units, etc) and what exactly did you have 4 of?

Where I live, bottles of alcohol come in all sorts of shapes and sizes. I assume it's probably the same for you. I ask because whether you should taper, and by how much, is really going to hinge on how much alcohol, and what proof the vodka is.

 

[Allein]

the OP doesnt say what he did the last time he quit

 

[Mehm]

if you are interested in actually quitting, i would highly recommend treating your disease, not just stop drinking. There are many in-patient and out-patient therapies to choose from. Or AA, which is the most effective means of treating alcohol known, is free.

 

[wooger]

Hiya

I'm sorry I was so rambling the first time around. But ermm yes, I drank 4 x 440ml beers (3.7%abv). The last time I quit I used clonazepam for around a week or so whenever the anxiety and shaking would start, as I was drinking 30 UK Units a day for AGES and was having constant panic attacks etc even when I was just tapering by 3 units every 5 days or so...I quit tapering as it was taking so long and just went straight onto the clonazepam...

This is quite strange, but the anxiety went away earlier, and i was feeling strangely happy and energetic, almost stimulated (dancing in my chair to music and stuff with loads of enthusiasm )... I sound like a lunatic....

anyway...now the anxiety is back... the doorbell jus rang and scared the shit out of me....

do you think if I just waited it out itll be over in a few days? or should I taper with beer? (I don't think I can get any clonazepam).

 

[bodhisattvaeimaj]

If it were me I'd try to tough it out but maybe keep a couple beers on hand in case it gets to be too much to handle. It's a very sensitive subject because as you probably know you can die from dt's. Like previous posters said it depends largely on the state of your alcoholism. If you quit for a month and you've only been back on for a week - in my opinion you should be able to quit cold turkey again.

Try to eat as healthy as you can and drink water to help purify your body. Cheyenne pepper is very good for your heart and circulatory system, it will also help heal your GI from the abuse of spirits (I put about a tablespoon in some vegetable juice).

You also need to figure out a way of removing the psychological need for alcohol (as other posters suggested - support groups), and try to replace your alcohol habit with some other healthy activity. Consider talking to a doctor as well - they may put you in some expensive detox but knowing you spent money might also help deter you from going back to alcohol. Good luck!

 

[wooger]

hey thanks for the advice... and cayenne pepper I love that stuff! :D I ended up caving and having 4 beers cus I was getting so fucking anxious this really sucks...

I dunno, I just feel like my life is such a fucking mess and I almost don't even have any motivation to try and sort it out because I don't know where to start...

or its almost just too difficult to what a mess it is