ChemicalDan
Bluelighter
a while ago i decided to write something... i always used to write songs and poems, but at some stage just stopped... mostly because of what i describe in this... unfortunatly i just kept writing and i havent yet read it all, but i know its unstructured... just someone writing... sorry if its too long and sorry if its just bullshit and a waste of ur time, but rite now this matters to me, so i'll post it... i'm used to not getting to many replys anyway... suppose i'm a bit boring...
HERE IT GOES:
why is it the one we love the most, who is in the attentions of our pain?
whether we give or receive, always one reaps the rich harvests of the others humanity
how come even those closest to you, cant understand you and the flames inside? you try to explain how you...YOU exist. you try and try, but noone can feel what you do. noone but you...
time flies, and if you're glued to the ground
time flies away and leaves you behind
so, like an old man left alone in this world
you sit back and watch as in a movie you sink into the pits of your hell
well, you do have the best seat in the house
watching first hand as life drags you around
like from far away you see through what you know are your eyes
there are people there reaching for you, but your screams remain unheard behind the mask you call a face and all remains your secret
and slowly, one by one the arms reaching for you are getting less
they must all give up one day, they DO all give up one day
and what hurts the most is knowing that it’s for the best
sparkles of life still shine in your eyes
glimmers of hope stirring your soul
you so want to be the best you can
you're wanting to give it all from you
give it all to be a better man
but you know it rite from the first moments of this new resolve for change
you know that you don’t have the strength, you don’t have what it takes
despair my friend, is only a strange mans bad dream
but it’s become your dream now and noone knows what you see
it'll take on any disguise it needs to get past all your defenses
and once it does it eats away on your SELF and all that you desire
it leaves you weak and unable to fight when it matters and when not
of course people will tell you that if you fight it hard enough you will prevail
after all where there is a will, there is a way
but despair doesn’t follow your rules, it doesn't just chill
hidden away the first thing it destroys is your strongest weapon that is just that... your will
as humans we all experience life differently
and yet we all share so much of the same
but all to often we hide what we feel inside
our pain
afraid to admit the humanity by which we are bound
we're alone whether in the largest crowds or with no soul around
Tell me, everybody
Tell me, everyone
Why am I alone though you are reading this?
Why are my insides burning to ash, when so many care?
please ANYONE tell me why words just won’t express
the hurt, the shame and loneliness
that have taken hold deep in my utter self?
and so i look at the road ahead
a long journey travelled in fear
and things look set in their way
no salvation is near
you can't change the past
and thats hard to accept
but if you can't change yourself
aren't you worthless?
and still i move with the flow of either destiny or chance
and still there are those who care and try to understand
i can see their hands reach out to me, but i push them away
drowning like the unknown extras of the titanic
it hurts but you do what you must
because whoever comes near is hurt
so you push them more and more
you push and push until you can push no more
because nothing good comes from you
ever...
So, i'll just crawl back under my rock in the dark
away from all of you and all of you away from harm
away from your tears that burn in my soul
as they flow down your face and you think it’s for me
but they burn me because i know it’s a waste and one day you'll see
So, i'll just crawl back under my rock in the dark
there i can cry on for evermore
there i can cry
always alone, alone, alone...
HERE IT GOES:
why is it the one we love the most, who is in the attentions of our pain?
whether we give or receive, always one reaps the rich harvests of the others humanity
how come even those closest to you, cant understand you and the flames inside? you try to explain how you...YOU exist. you try and try, but noone can feel what you do. noone but you...
time flies, and if you're glued to the ground
time flies away and leaves you behind
so, like an old man left alone in this world
you sit back and watch as in a movie you sink into the pits of your hell
well, you do have the best seat in the house
watching first hand as life drags you around
like from far away you see through what you know are your eyes
there are people there reaching for you, but your screams remain unheard behind the mask you call a face and all remains your secret
and slowly, one by one the arms reaching for you are getting less
they must all give up one day, they DO all give up one day
and what hurts the most is knowing that it’s for the best
sparkles of life still shine in your eyes
glimmers of hope stirring your soul
you so want to be the best you can
you're wanting to give it all from you
give it all to be a better man
but you know it rite from the first moments of this new resolve for change
you know that you don’t have the strength, you don’t have what it takes
despair my friend, is only a strange mans bad dream
but it’s become your dream now and noone knows what you see
it'll take on any disguise it needs to get past all your defenses
and once it does it eats away on your SELF and all that you desire
it leaves you weak and unable to fight when it matters and when not
of course people will tell you that if you fight it hard enough you will prevail
after all where there is a will, there is a way
but despair doesn’t follow your rules, it doesn't just chill
hidden away the first thing it destroys is your strongest weapon that is just that... your will
as humans we all experience life differently
and yet we all share so much of the same
but all to often we hide what we feel inside
our pain
afraid to admit the humanity by which we are bound
we're alone whether in the largest crowds or with no soul around
Tell me, everybody
Tell me, everyone
Why am I alone though you are reading this?
Why are my insides burning to ash, when so many care?
please ANYONE tell me why words just won’t express
the hurt, the shame and loneliness
that have taken hold deep in my utter self?
and so i look at the road ahead
a long journey travelled in fear
and things look set in their way
no salvation is near
you can't change the past
and thats hard to accept
but if you can't change yourself
aren't you worthless?
and still i move with the flow of either destiny or chance
and still there are those who care and try to understand
i can see their hands reach out to me, but i push them away
drowning like the unknown extras of the titanic
it hurts but you do what you must
because whoever comes near is hurt
so you push them more and more
you push and push until you can push no more
because nothing good comes from you
ever...
So, i'll just crawl back under my rock in the dark
away from all of you and all of you away from harm
away from your tears that burn in my soul
as they flow down your face and you think it’s for me
but they burn me because i know it’s a waste and one day you'll see
So, i'll just crawl back under my rock in the dark
there i can cry on for evermore
there i can cry
always alone, alone, alone...
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