kytnism
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i sincerely hope that you are not paying this woman for her 'guidance`
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So I fell for another druggie, I guess
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LOL. I'm seriously not getting into an argument about any of this. All these are well known subjects that many around the world do or do not believe in, and that is their own decision to make.
But traditionally these idea have been reserved for the cultural elite (someone mentioned Hitler who employed a whole stable of mediums to help him in the war) and kept from the commons who would just be ridiculed and laughed at for even bringing it up. To keep the knowledge and power that comes with it from them (as the human ego is so frail it would rather sacrifice knowledge that can benefit them then not be accepted by others).
I don't need any proof of what I believe as I've had my own personal experiences, through meditation, telepathy, clairsentience, etc. It's just normal to me, but I realise not to everyone else. And those with no experience will always ridicule. Besides, there are many who just don't have the balls to admit to it in public as they want it both ways.
But traditionally these idea have been reserved for the cultural elite (someone mentioned Hitler who employed a whole stable of mediums to help him in the war) and kept from the commons who would just be ridiculed and laughed at for even bringing it up. To keep the knowledge and power that comes with it from them (as the human ego is so frail it would rather sacrifice knowledge that can benefit them then not be accepted by others).
I don't need any proof of what I believe as I've had my own personal experiences, through meditation, telepathy, clairsentience, etc. It's just normal to me, but I realise not to everyone else. And those with no experience will always ridicule. Besides, there are many who just don't have the balls to admit to it in public as they want it both ways.
Bagseed
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yeah that totally worked out.
You mean because Germany achieved no success during the war or even the post-war years?
Psyduck
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WTF? who did acid in my cereals? this is getting too weird...
@Ninae: seriously, we are all angels in a sense, we want what is best for others... so why not listen to us?
I think it's best you first of all seek some professional/medical attention. This stuff is just too weird (even for bluelight-standards... which is already far far away from true reality). I am worried how you will survive in the real world. In particular, going into the relationship, as you described it above, won't do you any good. I am afraid that you will be taken advantage of (something you already seem to be prone to if you are actually paying this woman for "angel advice").
I am afraid she is. See http://www.thearchangelguide.com/Index.html (bottom page: Website Designed by Cynthia A. Silk © 2010)kytinism said:
@Ninae: seriously, we are all angels in a sense, we want what is best for others... so why not listen to us?
I think it's best you first of all seek some professional/medical attention. This stuff is just too weird (even for bluelight-standards... which is already far far away from true reality). I am worried how you will survive in the real world. In particular, going into the relationship, as you described it above, won't do you any good. I am afraid that you will be taken advantage of (something you already seem to be prone to if you are actually paying this woman for "angel advice").
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I think you need to consciously take a few years off from "falling in love" to redefine what you think love is. How can you seriously believe you love someone when you haven't seen them at their worst and darkest moment? You sound like a prime candidate for codependency and an abusive relationship.
Well, I don't know what experiences you have of love or falling in love, but the fact is it happens in different ways to different people.
I just happen to be more of a love-at first-sight person. Doesn't mean I look into someone's eyes and immediately see fireworks, but I get some sense that I could fall in love with them and the beginnings of those feelings, and as I keep thinking about them and so on it quickly grows. Like, my last boyfriend, I fell in love with the third time we spoke on the phone, just from the sound of his voice and connecting with him that way. It's the strongest experience of love I've ever had, and afterwards I just lay down on the couch completely blissed out for hours, totally intoxicated by that state. And it lasted for years, not just the honeymoon phase.
The last dealer-guy I met I also only saw briefly and hugged and shook hands with but that started something with him too and I was in a state of love with him for a month or so, before it passed. While this guy I haven't completely fallen in love with yet but feeling the potential and beginnings of it. Funny thing, when there is no man in my life that interests me I don't really think about them at all. Don't be so quick to judge what you lack experience with.
I just happen to be more of a love-at first-sight person. Doesn't mean I look into someone's eyes and immediately see fireworks, but I get some sense that I could fall in love with them and the beginnings of those feelings, and as I keep thinking about them and so on it quickly grows. Like, my last boyfriend, I fell in love with the third time we spoke on the phone, just from the sound of his voice and connecting with him that way. It's the strongest experience of love I've ever had, and afterwards I just lay down on the couch completely blissed out for hours, totally intoxicated by that state. And it lasted for years, not just the honeymoon phase.
The last dealer-guy I met I also only saw briefly and hugged and shook hands with but that started something with him too and I was in a state of love with him for a month or so, before it passed. While this guy I haven't completely fallen in love with yet but feeling the potential and beginnings of it. Funny thing, when there is no man in my life that interests me I don't really think about them at all. Don't be so quick to judge what you lack experience with.
Just got a new message from him after asking if he could help me out with some pills, and he sounds pretty sincere, serious, and kind of simple to me. Either way, I would never trust him with a lot of money in a million years. Glad to see he's alive though.
“I’d like to help you, I don’t know how you’d like to do it, but I need money in advance and then you will also get quite a good bonus the more you buy. And if you’d like to continue I'd be happy to do that. I would prefer the money sent to me, I don’t have the address right now, but you will have it when I have a new place to sleep.
And it’s also important that you choose a way for me to send it so it doesn’t exactly look like medication. But I can also take care of that if you want. I’m thinking of the customs and it’s neeeeeever ceized anyway. But you never know and I’m always careful when I can, as that benefits us both. But we must almost do it like I say, as I really have no money to front, and you have my word and my family’s word that I won’t con or trick you in any way, as you’re already taking a big risk by sending me money, if you want to at least.
Apart from that I can always meet you every time you come down, and I’ve also started selling Xanax 2 mg (bars), but not in glasses, smaller amounts, but that is not a completely done deal yet, so if/when it happens I’ll let you know. But I’m leaving here for home for a bit now, and then coming down again, so I will give you my address.”
“I’d like to help you, I don’t know how you’d like to do it, but I need money in advance and then you will also get quite a good bonus the more you buy. And if you’d like to continue I'd be happy to do that. I would prefer the money sent to me, I don’t have the address right now, but you will have it when I have a new place to sleep.
And it’s also important that you choose a way for me to send it so it doesn’t exactly look like medication. But I can also take care of that if you want. I’m thinking of the customs and it’s neeeeeever ceized anyway. But you never know and I’m always careful when I can, as that benefits us both.
But we must almost do it like I say, as I really have no money to front, and you have my word and my family’s word that I won’t con or trick you in any way, as you’re already taking a big risk by sending me money, if you want to at least. Apart from that I can always meet you every time you come down, and I’ve also started selling Xanax 2 mg (bars), but not in glasses, smaller amounts, but that is not a completely done deal yet, so if/when it happens I’ll let you know. But I’m leaving here for home for a bit now, and then coming down again, so I will give you my address.”
Comrade Kane
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Ninae you say you had 'experiences'. How did you determine that these were not actually delusions and hallucinations perhaps drug induced since you are addicted to benzodiazepines and klonopine? A delusional mind is never aware of the delusion and will maintain the fiction even in face of strong evidence to the contrary.
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I would re commend you stop paying chalartans to channel non existent angels and use those savings to see a shrink also get into a rehab program. Don't date anyone until you're over all this nonsense, it'll just drag the both of you down.
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I would re commend you stop paying chalartans to channel non existent angels and use those savings to see a shrink also get into a rehab program. Don't date anyone until you're over all this nonsense, it'll just drag the both of you down.
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Yes, sir.
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Comrade Kane
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I see one of your other threads was locked for breaking the no preaching rule.
You need help. Lots of help.
You need help. Lots of help.
Look, you are the judgemental one trying to deny someone else the freedom of their own beliefs, which I believe is closer to breaking the no preaching rule.
I for myself cannot believe anyone can't see the spirit in the eyes of an animal or child or feel the wondereous spiritual energy brimming in nature, and am by no means alone in this. But if your consciousness is still spiritually unawakened that might not be the case and sound like a fairytale to you. And if you like to keep it that way and that is your prerogative.
I am certainly not going to try convince you or change your mind either way. There are just so many who are having real spiritual experiences these days I'm suprised to meet someone who aren't. But then there are also many who still don't. And I think this is all that needs to be said about that. Especially as this board even has a forum for this kind of thing so I'm not that out there.
I for myself cannot believe anyone can't see the spirit in the eyes of an animal or child or feel the wondereous spiritual energy brimming in nature, and am by no means alone in this. But if your consciousness is still spiritually unawakened that might not be the case and sound like a fairytale to you. And if you like to keep it that way and that is your prerogative.
I am certainly not going to try convince you or change your mind either way. There are just so many who are having real spiritual experiences these days I'm suprised to meet someone who aren't. But then there are also many who still don't. And I think this is all that needs to be said about that. Especially as this board even has a forum for this kind of thing so I'm not that out there.
pofacedhoe
Bluelight Crew
everyone is entitled to their beliefs.
to deny spirituality is simply an opinion because one way or the other you can never prove whether god does or doesn't exist. if it cant be falsified then it cant be known one way or the other.
however anyone you are giving money to you need to question whether giving someone money is going to make them honest OR just feed you what you want to hear
op- are you getting what you wanted from this thread? because originally it was a relationship question
to deny spirituality is simply an opinion because one way or the other you can never prove whether god does or doesn't exist. if it cant be falsified then it cant be known one way or the other.
however anyone you are giving money to you need to question whether giving someone money is going to make them honest OR just feed you what you want to hear
op- are you getting what you wanted from this thread? because originally it was a relationship question
Pagey
Bluelight Crew
It would be good not to turn this thread into a religious or spiritual discussion ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
People are entitled to their own beliefs. You may or may not disagree with them but there really isn't any point in refuting any sort of belief.
Ninae I'd just like to add that no matter what you believe I don't think it should affect your judgments of people because it's exactly that - a belief. My views are that it's always safer, no matter what, to remember that you can't be sure of what you stand for and if this can avoid your getting hurt or played, then so much the better.
People are entitled to their own beliefs. You may or may not disagree with them but there really isn't any point in refuting any sort of belief.
Ninae I'd just like to add that no matter what you believe I don't think it should affect your judgments of people because it's exactly that - a belief. My views are that it's always safer, no matter what, to remember that you can't be sure of what you stand for and if this can avoid your getting hurt or played, then so much the better.
pofacedhoe
Bluelight Crew
my thoughts exactly:D
Hahah.
1. Don't underestimate my rhetoric skills.
2. No, I haven't actually achieved what I was looking for by making this thread. I'm actually starting to feel more and more depressed as I feel there's no way I can live with him and I don't want to live without him.
1. Don't underestimate my rhetoric skills.
2. No, I haven't actually achieved what I was looking for by making this thread. I'm actually starting to feel more and more depressed as I feel there's no way I can live with him and I don't want to live without him.
T. Calderone
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Ninae, you just met the guy and I can only recommend take it slow. I understand what you mean in the first post about the Indian guy moving too fast. He just didn't "spark" you. But this new guy did and then some. Even more reason to think with your head and try not to think with your heart. It's hard to do. I fell for a guy who even admitted he was a sociopath. He was very sweet, complimentary and charming in the beginning but that didn't last very long. He could be on top of the world and then any small thing would set him off and then came the ugly abusive side. It fucked with my head and still to this day he phones every so often, but I don't want to get sucked in again. Keep your eyes wide open!
Pagey
Bluelight Crew
I think you really need to control your emotions. I understand you're one of those 'love at first sight' sort of people but I really don't believe you can find a soulmate in a few minutes. Actually I also don't believe you can fall in love with anyone unless you've been with them for months frankly. If you don't see him again I'm sure you'll have forgotten all about him within a few weeks. As Sartre said, 'there is no love but that which is built'.