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so how did it all start for YOU?

I've been using since I was 13. Because I started so young, I used anything I could get my hands on.
 
My mom used to fill up cups of peach schnapps/OJ for me when I was 5-8 so I could be like the big people. This *definitely* started everything that came after. There was ALWAYS pot smoking going on around me and instead of being told a single thing negative about it, I was told just not to tell anyone at school.

Once 13 hit, I smoked pot for the first time and haven't really stopped since. (Although that chapter is coming to a close, as it makes me VERY paranoid/anxious these days). When I turned 15/16, my parents started buying booze for me on a weekend basis. I have not been sober for more than 2 months since.

As far as other drugs; they've come and gone. I had a 3 month period where I *always* had a gram of blow in my pocket, ALWAYS. Another 3 month period where I was munching methadone like M&M's. I ate a lot of Xanax over the course of 3-4 years. My ex-fiance was all about the pharms, so the time we were together I was railing oxy's, vic's, perc's, etc. Never cared much for the nausea.

The past 4 years it's been pretty much booze and weed only, but the alcohol consumption has gotten bad. Today is the start of my 3rd day without a drink.
 
Started on my own pretty much. Just decided I wanted to get some weed so I looked for it and found it. Then mushrooms, then everything else.

Meth/amphetamines turned out to be my Achilles heel. My grandfather was addicted and probably died early from Ritalin abuse, and my dad was addicted to coke and speed. So I suppose it isn't much of a big surprise.
 
I started with pot just because I wanted to find out why something was so bad, yet so many people obviously disagreed.... and I always ignore the government anti-drug propaganda anyways. It was straight ruining my afterschool TV viewing.
Actually, drugs totally kept me from being planted in front of a Nintendo game constantly too. 8)

So when I smoked pot the first time.... I knew the squares had it all wrong, and chemical augmentation was the thing for me.
After that, I had my hands on LSD and shrooms far before my buddies even got around to smoking cigarettes. We tried various medicine-cabinet finds, like valium and percocet, but those never impressed me much.

Only until I got physically hurt, did opiates have any appeal for me.

I've been a psychonaut of one form or another, ever since I was a little kid..... dreams, hallucinations, drugs, and the mind always fascinated me.... and psychedelia gave me a way IN..... I was never looking for escape or a way to relax.
 
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Started with weed at 15. I had always been interested in chemistry and psychology, yes even at that age. Hell it started with trying to understand weather at age 5 but my life of science is another story. I love the idea of drugs, mere atoms that changed my view of the world. At 16 i tried percocet 5s. I really fell in love with opiates. I avoided them though they disappeared.

From 15-21 i did everything under the sun. I found my real addiction dealing weed, it was money. Id do nearly anything for money, the best money comes when people thank you for ripping them off. I sold anything i could, then i got busted. I turned to alcohol being 21 it was easy. For 2 years that was all i did, drink alone. Then I met my girlfriend and quit drinking.

She suggested one day we get some 30s since my previous opiate use had been all depressing and alone. I loved doing them with her and as always i loved opiates. I watched the amounts double triple i saw 2000 dollars cash come in and go in weeks because of those stupid blue pills. I saw money the young me would have died thinking he could get all disappear with one phone call.

Now i sit here blowing pay checks on 30s all because someone felt bad enough to hook me up with a connection. All because they couldnt get me 30s that one time over priced they gave me an actual dealer. Part of me never wanted one knowing what i would become if i had something like that. Constant talk of quitting and how they make things hard but the second that check clears the excuses come up. One last dance with Mary Jane we all say just once more its not our fault this week went this way.

Would i change any of it, I dont know. Part of me saw this coming at 16 when i fell in love. Back then it was so easy to say no since no one had them. I was the only one trying to buy my friends parents pain meds. Now everyones offering me heroin 30s opana. I wish it was like it use to be, though i promised myself im not living in the past anymore.

I know everyone loses something when they go into opiates, be it respect, innocents, or love I just hope my story is somehow different.

From the first bowl out of a soda can to the last line of 90mg of oxy its been a long journey.
 
szuko000 said:
I had always been interested in chemistry and psychology, yes even at that age. Hell it started with trying to understand weather at age 5 but my life of science is another story. I love the idea of drugs, mere atoms that changed my view of the world..
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=D ^^ THIS ^^ =D

I found an old doctors'-reference pharmacological catalog at my Oma's house when I was about 7, and I remember being amazed at how *many* drugs there were.... even then. I read that book every summer, and would then look up the conditions and things those drugs were used for in the encyclopedias. Plus, molecule diagrams just looked really awesome lol.

I think that was when I first learned that drugs weren't just used to treat things like the flu, heart problems, and injuries..... but were also used to alter the way the mind *perceived* things..... and led me to the idea that there are alternative realities for everyone, and not just the one I saw/experienced.... and that I could alter my own as well.

I used to sit with my Dad during school summers up in central Michigan, and we'd watch weather from the farmhouse steps. He said once that wanted to be a meteorologist when he grew up, and I guess I share his fascination with weather & climate too. If I'm close to an approaching intense storm with a good view, I'll just watch it until it hits.
This includes tornadoes and hurricanes..... I'm always the guy waiting until the last minute with my camera, before running for cover ;) =D
 
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Where did your use of drugs begin? Any particular reason (trying to silence something in your head? Trying to forget something?) or were you just extremely curious?
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Began in highschool with weed. I was already curious about drugs, and hated school so that's about how it started. I had drank beer before that I think. Then I moved on to shrooms and acid. I would also do nitrous out of whipcream containers. As far as I can remember it was a while until I did anything else like opiates or benzos tho. I mostly just did a lot of binge drinking. Surprised my liver still functions. I do remember I had to go to the hospital one time because I blacked out in a restaurant and vomitted all over the place. I was unresponsive with a .4 alcohol level. Fun times. There's actually a few fucked up things from my past that I can remember besides that, maybe I'll edit this later.
 
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Started as self medicated running away from the horribleness that was home, sixth and seventh grade, smoking weed in the girls' bathroom, in the woods during lunch.
High school hit, and I continued smoking pot, and went on a year long psychedelic binge-- acid, shrooms. Did crystal for the first time at 14 and ended up in treatment. Came back, smoked a lot of weed, and moved to the "big city" to rave. MDMA became my God... until I got back into crystal through some "friends".
Hit my low point, 88 lbs, curled naked on the floor in a house with no heat, no more hookup, and came home.
From there I started drinking, heavier and heavier, to cover up the scars that I couldn't hide any longer.... had surgery and ended up on pills.
I am now 3 days clean. This is the longest I have been **totally** clean since I was 13, and that's if you don't count ciggies.
 
When I was 13 started with weed, and booze.. and one day at a party I tried coke and liked it so I started doing it but it was getting too expensive so I moved on to meth since is cheaper, then when I was around 16 my friend offer me some vicodins(hydrocodone) 10mg I took 2 and I felt like I never felt before , from then on I din't want anything else and got real hooked on opiates (hydrocodone, oxycontin , percocet). I'am Still am. from all the drugs I did opiates are definitely the hardest addiction I got into , I've tried hundreds of times to quit but I just can't the withdrawals are horrible.
 
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Was on Christmas vacation and my brother ended up picking my sister and I up. We went to the chinese buffet and my brother ordered something made with 151 and he let my sister and I drink it. At the time he was twenty three, my sister fourteen and I was fifteen. Anyways we keep getting more drinks and then end up sick cause of the mixer they had it in being so acidic. Other than that we leave, my brother was fine to drive cause he really didn't have much and trust me been more fucked up and driving on other occasions (no doesn't give him an excuse or make it any better). That was the first time my sister and I drank alcohol. Then he gave us a cigarette and we smoked for the first time ever. Ended up we're like why don't we drink more after and my brother was like fuck yeah I waited forever for you guys to say that. He was so proud for us to say we wanted to get fucked up with him....... so we picked up a lot of booze. Ended up drinking at his girlfriends until she knew that our mom would kill her if she found out (brother was dating a cougar my mom knew and my mom hated his girlfriend).... so we walk up to his dads house really drunk and it was icy.... We ended up drinking in the basement, his dad wasn't home. My sister drank a whole bottle of something to herself that should of been obviously shared and she was almost out of it. Ended up my brother was messing with ninja stars and almost hit her in the head with one cause it bounced off something.... my sister then passed out cause she drank to much so my brother and I were just there and I noticed some old dried out marijuana plants and then got the idea to smoke. My bro ran upstairs got a pipe and some weed and taught me how to hold the carb shut and everything (burned my finger that shit got hot) anyways the song that was playing was notorious thugs by bone thugs-n-harmony/biggie and I will never forget that. I didn't get high though.... but yeah his girlfriend ended up showing up in the place and I hid my drink behind my legs and she's like you guys aren't drinking right? (she was so fucked up on alcohol...was an alcoholic herself) and we go no just smoking some weed and she goes oh okay and leaves. Ends up we drink with my brothers dad once he comes home and then we have to leave. We walk home drunk out of our minds...I had to hold my brother up from falling cause of the ice.... but anyways that same night my brother and I went out drunk to get some more money for alcohol and yeah drunk driving stupid but we did it. A cop was right behind us and we were like fuck but then didn't care, luckily he didn't pull us over. We then parked at the store went stumbling in drunk to dump coins in that money thing get like 20 dollars and then go back to the liquor store.... That's how everything started.
 
Where did your use of drugs begin? Any particular reason (trying to silence something in your head? Trying to forget something?) or were you just extremely curious?
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i think it started back when i was 14,
i tore my calf from a soccer game and got prescribed some benzos,
i fucking loved them. they made me so goofy and DGAFish at school.
then one day i started hiding them in my room because my parents were gonna take em away:\
(and this was a time when i was an A+ student, and was a tremendous athlete;))

later that year i tried MDMA, loved it,
and now im always tryin to get some sort of <3amphetamine<3
all thanks to a fucked up abusive family, who turned me into a schizo outcast.
 
It started with when my doctor started me on stimulant A.D.D. meds. I don't know if it was better that I had them or not. They totally saved my life when it came to accountability and academics but they got me interested in drugs. Now I have trouble dealing with even small stressers without the use of drugs.
 
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The first drug I took even before alcohol was hydrocodone after some tooth thing but I didn't feel much from it. The first drug I enjoyed was alcohol, but It didn't impress me all that much. I turned into a druggie after smoking cannabis and loving the high. I eventually developed an addiction to cannabis, then I moved over to alcohol and benzos and now I use psychedelics and heroin.
 
When I was 12 I was getting myself up for school because my parents both went into work early in the morning. Anyway, I eventually thought it might be a good idea to get into my dad's roach jar and see what the fuss about marijuana was all about. Best bus ride ever :)

This turned into a daily ritual and soon enough I was spending lunch money on weed. Then two or three years later I got interested in DXM so I decided to see what all the fuss was about and I picked up a box of coricidin. Soon enough I was using DXM nearly everyday.

After that point I was pretty much down for anything and tried anything I could get my hands on.
 
about a month after i turned 16, i tried pot for the first time with a friend. we were both just curious i guess you could say. about 4 months after that, i was pretty much an everday smoker. aside from a few breaks i took for various reasons, i continued being an everyday smoker for around 2 years, up until about a month ago. who knows, maybe right now is just an off period too. anyways, last summer/fall was when i tried a lot of other drugs. i started drinking more often, started using vicodin a few times a week which culminated in a two day mini binge which was the last time i ever used it recreationally. tried benzos, and didnt like them. i started using ecstasy, and had my honeymoon period, in which afterwards i realized i had to slow down. i still roll, but i try and keep it to once a month. i did shrooms a few times. i did acid for the first time last october, and in january i started dropping a lot, once a week sometimes more. ya thats pretty much it for me, luckily my drugs of choice are not "addicting", so besides cigarettes i dont condsider myself an addict.
 
had my first cigarette at 8 and quite liked it, smoked on and off and then at 13 I started smoking everyday and binge drinking whatever i could get hold of.
Had my first joint at 14 and started smoking hash everyday at 16.
Speed (amphet) at 18
LSD at 21 then I started going to raves and started doing alsorts ..lots of MDXX as well as the speed and a ridiculous hash habit carried on like that for 7-8 years.
Its only now I'm trying to free myself of daily drug and alcohol use
 
I started abusing alcohol at the age of around 15 or 16, then revisited a stronger abuse when I was 18-20. At around 20 or so I started experimenting with Salvia for a year. I then later developed a love for DXM and DMT for another year or so. Also kind of reintroduced to cigarettes at this time.
 
october 26 2010 was the first time i tried weed because my brother sold it for awhile, was one of the freshman stoners of our small school. id say mid april i started experimenting with diphenhydramine. late may i started using 2nd/3rd platue doses of DXM ~2-4 times a month, early june got into more legal drugs. i bought 125 HBWR seeds and ate those on a near-daily basis until i ran out of them. ive been smoking incense more than weed now. about 2 grams a week. and im probably gonna end up trying more things. im sticking to legal things because i dont have any connections to any "real" drugs.
 
My cousin Martin is a guy I've always looked up to.
He's 3years my senior.
When i was 12 i went to go visit him for a month n he chiefs major.
Well i finally found out after i told him how i discovered that my mom smokes weed too.
After a talk about how bud is alot safer n healthier than other substances i wasnt so confused or angry about her.
Then he invited me for a couple rips n I've been in love ever since.
In fact he too was the one to turn me into the greaser I be today.
I gotta lot to thank him for.
 
60units said:
Before I even started smoking I found some Vicodin in the medicine cabinet so I looked them up on the good old internet and found out I could get high on them. Thus began my long love affair with opiates. God I wish I could still get high on a couple 5 mg hydros. Hell, I wish I could still get high on 20 of them.
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qft, word for word, same story... i usually use 40 units :-)
 
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