goodnitestar
Bluelighter
in this place
so here i am
and here we are
running, stubling
in this race
weve come to know
come to find each other again
and again
looking into mirrors,
waiting for a differnt face
yet its the same
unchanging
day to day
farther into accepting
what you see
what is it that i see
staring picking
probing my skin
fidling with my hair
my stomach is full
and i grab at it
wishing i could be what you
like to see
perfection
stipped down to her demise
showing it all
so she can ...feel...
love.... in the uncharterd places of her body
shes got nothing left
i have no respect
yet i wonder if i would do the same
starving for your affection
knowing it is all a sick plea
who is it , what is it that you
desire most to be with
why are you fucking me , just because im here , the little girlfreind you live with now , for now
just a alternative to your fantasy
your trying to but havent found yet
and im good too you . too damn good,
and i cook and clean ,
anything, and everthing,
for you
so im her , yes here i am
and here we are
together just because we need someone
to be that someone
but will i ever be ,will you ever really deeply love and respect me?
or would you trade me for ....
outer beauty and a girl that doesnt mind
a girl who will adhere to all your shit
not complain, and bitch
accept you for you is a phase i cant attend too
i guess for now im going to have to do , manage to be , ok for your liking ,
although i will someday get through to myself
and all this writting will hit me in the face and slap me far away from you and your cheating lying gaze
so here i am
and here we are
running, stubling
in this race
weve come to know
come to find each other again
and again
looking into mirrors,
waiting for a differnt face
yet its the same
unchanging
day to day
farther into accepting
what you see
what is it that i see
staring picking
probing my skin
fidling with my hair
my stomach is full
and i grab at it
wishing i could be what you
like to see
perfection
stipped down to her demise
showing it all
so she can ...feel...
love.... in the uncharterd places of her body
shes got nothing left
i have no respect
yet i wonder if i would do the same
starving for your affection
knowing it is all a sick plea
who is it , what is it that you
desire most to be with
why are you fucking me , just because im here , the little girlfreind you live with now , for now
just a alternative to your fantasy
your trying to but havent found yet
and im good too you . too damn good,
and i cook and clean ,
anything, and everthing,
for you
so im her , yes here i am
and here we are
together just because we need someone
to be that someone
but will i ever be ,will you ever really deeply love and respect me?
or would you trade me for ....
outer beauty and a girl that doesnt mind
a girl who will adhere to all your shit
not complain, and bitch
accept you for you is a phase i cant attend too
i guess for now im going to have to do , manage to be , ok for your liking ,
although i will someday get through to myself
and all this writting will hit me in the face and slap me far away from you and your cheating lying gaze
