KimJungSkill
Greenlighter
Hey guys, I hope that everyone reading this is doing great, especially with all the craziness of 2020! Now to the point of why I decided to join Bluelight, where to start... I have a friend who passed away and he was always trying to get me to give it a shot. Which up until now I didn't (Stubborn me xD) . That being said I saw the difference it made in his life to be around a group of similar minded people who can come together and bounce ideas and science off of one another, The main reason I joined though is because of the BL Mental Health Forum. Just today I was able to find a post that as I was reading it I knew that I wasn't the only one who felt like this person did, So I replied and am hoping this may start some kind of Accountability buddy thing with me and him. I Love the very set rules as well, it does't feel draconian, each rule has a purpose and in the end it helps us all out! To wrap this part up and sorry I tend to be long winded! I am currently in the best financial place that I have ever been, yet I hope this isn't against the rules for the sake of the topic, I am in a 6 month process to rid myself of the Suboxone and Vyvane as now all they are when I take them are side effects, low testosterone and Intestinal issues. Which if I don;t address now will turn into something a lot more serious given my families history of Crohns, IBS and IBD. Moving onto the next point!
My background is very hard to explain and for the sake of this post I will keep it as short as possible. 20 year Alaskan raised guy who bounced from treatment to treatment around 15 times before it took my whole family to cut me off. At that point I was homeless in Huntsville, Alabama. I sis the street life of being a beggar and doing drugs that gave small duration highs for a cheap price. Well one day I missed a bullet to the skull by inches. About a week later I used my tax returns to get into a Sober House that allowed suboxone, I worked a job for around 9 months and was struck by an employee at one our tire pickups. Luckily I quit, and my parents ( Who hadn't seen or heard from me in a year, their choice by the way which i needed at the time") broke the news that when my lease ran out in a month from them they were going to fly me to WA state.They explained why they never answered any of my texts or calls and I understood then they went on to say but we have noticed the changes in you (Not to say I can't go get fucked up tonight if I wanted to. I;m rambling again sorry back to the point we go. I have been in Washington 9 months, out of those 9 months I have worked 8 bought my own car a I pay rent for my parents guest house. Phone bills paid, I mean the whole nine yard> Now me an the Dr have made a 6 month Suboxone Taper and he told me that whenever I am ready to jump off the Vyvanse that he is all for it! I;m tired of people saying "Congrats on your sobriety, keep it up man"I feel like it's all sham... Because I've essentially traded addiction which since they were more Socially Acceptable I've been justifying why its ok. Well enough is enough, and if Bluelight is everything I've been told about... I want in, I want to meet other BLers and share my story of the coming year I'll have battling getting off the Subs and also the move, I know it;s all up to me, but being around others like me can help encourage me to push through when it gets tough so WHEN I OVERCOME these goals I have set for myself then I can immediately turn around and be at a point to help someone who was in my shoes, I want to grow with you all, get to know you and figure out ways I can help spread the message to the people out there about BL.
The dreaded question and I want to make it brief as I can handle being around drugs ant not doing them, however I understand why it's good to know within the Community who did what in terms of drugs, I started Toking reefer around 13y/o shortly after that quickly evolved into Pain Pills. Oddly enough I didn't' go heavy in Pain Pills until the age of 17, which within months became Heroin, meth, Crack; you know the whole gambit. Did anything I could get my hands on but H and Ice were my absolute favorite things. Fast forward to 2014 when i discovered Suboxone the first tine I was prescribed and from that day forward I haven't touched an actual Opiate. Something about Suboxone just makes it my number one and I couldn't tell you why exactly,. I have been on and off Concerta since I was a kid with the ADHD diagnoses si idk it was an amphetamine, which probably lead to me liking Ice later on in life. But as of right now as i stated earlier I take 1 Sub 8mg a day and 60mg Vyvanse, which I cannot wait to get off of.
Thank you so much for listening to my ramble. I have low self esteem and finding friends in life is non-existent for me right now. Also I want to donate just not sure hot it works! So if someone could explain that better i'd appreciate it! I tried reading it earlier and it flew over my head! SO GLAD TO BE WELCOMED HERE! I can;t wait to grow with you guys and eventually n=member so I can help others in need as much as possible! Cheers!
_KimjungSkillet
My background is very hard to explain and for the sake of this post I will keep it as short as possible. 20 year Alaskan raised guy who bounced from treatment to treatment around 15 times before it took my whole family to cut me off. At that point I was homeless in Huntsville, Alabama. I sis the street life of being a beggar and doing drugs that gave small duration highs for a cheap price. Well one day I missed a bullet to the skull by inches. About a week later I used my tax returns to get into a Sober House that allowed suboxone, I worked a job for around 9 months and was struck by an employee at one our tire pickups. Luckily I quit, and my parents ( Who hadn't seen or heard from me in a year, their choice by the way which i needed at the time") broke the news that when my lease ran out in a month from them they were going to fly me to WA state.They explained why they never answered any of my texts or calls and I understood then they went on to say but we have noticed the changes in you (Not to say I can't go get fucked up tonight if I wanted to. I;m rambling again sorry back to the point we go. I have been in Washington 9 months, out of those 9 months I have worked 8 bought my own car a I pay rent for my parents guest house. Phone bills paid, I mean the whole nine yard> Now me an the Dr have made a 6 month Suboxone Taper and he told me that whenever I am ready to jump off the Vyvanse that he is all for it! I;m tired of people saying "Congrats on your sobriety, keep it up man"I feel like it's all sham... Because I've essentially traded addiction which since they were more Socially Acceptable I've been justifying why its ok. Well enough is enough, and if Bluelight is everything I've been told about... I want in, I want to meet other BLers and share my story of the coming year I'll have battling getting off the Subs and also the move, I know it;s all up to me, but being around others like me can help encourage me to push through when it gets tough so WHEN I OVERCOME these goals I have set for myself then I can immediately turn around and be at a point to help someone who was in my shoes, I want to grow with you all, get to know you and figure out ways I can help spread the message to the people out there about BL.
The dreaded question and I want to make it brief as I can handle being around drugs ant not doing them, however I understand why it's good to know within the Community who did what in terms of drugs, I started Toking reefer around 13y/o shortly after that quickly evolved into Pain Pills. Oddly enough I didn't' go heavy in Pain Pills until the age of 17, which within months became Heroin, meth, Crack; you know the whole gambit. Did anything I could get my hands on but H and Ice were my absolute favorite things. Fast forward to 2014 when i discovered Suboxone the first tine I was prescribed and from that day forward I haven't touched an actual Opiate. Something about Suboxone just makes it my number one and I couldn't tell you why exactly,. I have been on and off Concerta since I was a kid with the ADHD diagnoses si idk it was an amphetamine, which probably lead to me liking Ice later on in life. But as of right now as i stated earlier I take 1 Sub 8mg a day and 60mg Vyvanse, which I cannot wait to get off of.
Thank you so much for listening to my ramble. I have low self esteem and finding friends in life is non-existent for me right now. Also I want to donate just not sure hot it works! So if someone could explain that better i'd appreciate it! I tried reading it earlier and it flew over my head! SO GLAD TO BE WELCOMED HERE! I can;t wait to grow with you guys and eventually n=member so I can help others in need as much as possible! Cheers!
_KimjungSkillet