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so confused

DXM-
I've attempted suicide myself once at 17 and twice in my 20's and numerous half attempts
Suicide despite what the song says isn't painless-
The body, despite our efforts to control it, will react violently in order to survive (thats its job to fight for its life)no matter what method used. It is not like flicking off a lightswitch(like its ignorantlyand romantically potrayed in 'Romeo and Juliet' fashion in the Media). Really hope you start to take yourself more seriously and not be led/controlled by Anything or Anyone
 
unbreakable, i know what you mean, but this girls not just pussy to me. i am truely trying to stop the drugs, but every time i think about them, its like i cant control my body. <NO drug talk in TDS that may be triggering. Please read the TDS Guidelines> i never really thought of how she would feel if i did kill myself. i would do anything for this girl. weather it be fighting a ufc fighter, or just bieng there when shes sad. i mean anything
 
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dude lol. you should probably think about getting some help if you feel like you cant control your drug use and are experiencing suicidal impulses..

i dont know man, i think youre lucky to have a girlfriend that cares about you and if you just take her for granted and fuck it up so you can get high then youre a world class douche and you will always have to live with that regret, trust me.

on an unrelated note, who still uses myspace?
 
^True that. ;)

If you would do anything for this girl, and she wants you sober. Go sober.
If you are not willing to do anything for this girl, cut her loose and save both of you the pain of dragging on a relationship that is going nowhere.

If you feel you are going to hurt yourself, PLEASE SEEK MEDICAL ATTN ASAP.

There has been a large number of posts needing to be edited in this thread.
I want to clear things up-
DO NOT talk about current drug use in TDS.
DO NOT try to encourage others to harm themselves or tell them what may work.
If this thread does not begin to take any sort of productive direction, I will be closing it.

HERE is a link to TDS Guidelines. Please take the time to read them.
 
lol. i know i couldnt have been the only one wondering about that.


seriously though man, get some help and dont fuck up with this girl.. i dont know you but you seem pretty unstable and no chick is gonna stick around and put up with your shit for long.
 
Fuck suicide.. anyone can do that. Live. I know it can be comforting to think that you could just end it all so you wont have to put up with yourself. If you stuck with weed you'd be fine.
 
I would never kill myself.... fuck that shit...

<snip> but hey fuck that shit man life is good if you are alive.... you just gotta realize that.... Your alive, : )
 
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Living is AWESOME. I know you've felt that before and will again eventually


Suicide hurts so many people (including "yourself") how could you consider the idea? (I have before don't get me wrong, but just realize things are low right now. They WILL get better, I bet my life and soul on it)


You're 17 smart, passionate, and, and full of life. See what it brings to you if you let it.

please
 
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If it comes to changing a habit, changing yourself, you do it for you. Not for someone else. I've been there..
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Just like he says.

IMO, one of the worst things that a person can do is to people please.

Don't change anything about yourself or your habits for somebody else, EVER.

If you truly love her, and you truly want to get clean as well, I'd say go for it.

But if you are not sure that you like her all that much, or are not sure that you are ready to stop getting high yet (if ever), then get the hell away from that girl!

And if it does come down to is ^, tell her straight up, be like, "I really like you, but I am not willing to give up a part of my life in order to be with you. I still like you and we should be friends." Something gay along those sorts.

ANd damn dxmkid, where have you been? i was gettin worried about you! THought you died or somethin =(( ! Glad to see you back kiddo.:D
 
give up drugs. commit to your girlfriend now and you will be a happy man when you mature.

drugs damaged my brain especially the social parts. I am intelligent and good looking but have been somewhat ruined by drugs (pot). If I knew in my teenage years how much it was effecting my brain and pathologigally affecting my "mood" I would have made some very different decisions. (I put mood in inverted commas because pot does things to ones empotions which although pleasurable cause them to adapt in a way that is not conducive to natural normal human to human body to body, face to face soul to soul derived pleasure I know this is a cliché but its a chiché for a reason YOUR BRAIN IS DEVELOPING, DONT FUCK IT UP, just imagine how much you dont want a fucked up brain, give it a chance ). I hate what drugs (or rathar that fact that I used drugs instead of nurturing relationships) have done to me. As a fellow human I hope you take my advice and live a more normal life than I did.

This is something very close tomy heart, I'm on heroin now because of the social damage that I have and I would love to influence you not to go down the same route.
But if you are not sure that you like her all that much, or are not sure that you are ready to stop getting high yet (if ever), then get the hell away from that girl!
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But if you are not sure that you want to live high for the rest of time, or are not sure that you are ready to love and laugh with girls and guys (if ever), then get the hell away from those drugs!
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shes gone

well you guys were right. i just got this message from her


hi. im really sorry i have to do this but this isnt going to work anymore, we cant even make things work during a break and its suppose to help and just being together is not working out as we hoped. this is one of the most hardest things i will ever do but our relationship isnt going anywhere and it wont. i still love you, i told you that no matter what happens to us my feelngs for you wont change and i meant that. im not gunna hold you back in a relationship that is pretty much nothing. idk, maybe we can make this work later on but not right now. this is hard for me to do and honestly i dont want to do this because you mean so much to me. this is probably the best even though you probably think its not. i know this is gunna be hard on both of us but how the relationship is now is even worse. you can be mad at me, hate me, stop loving me, whatever for doing this even though i said i wouldnt...i just want you to be happy and i know that whats going on right now does not make you happy. pretty much, the drugs and stuff was what messed up our relationship and i wish it didnt. im sooo sorry, but it has to end. please know that i still love you more than anything and i dont take back anything i told you about how i felt about you...im sure this is something none of us wanted to happen but i guess it did, so that pretty much it. i hope that maybe you can get things together and if we wanted we can try this again. i know i just said this, but i love you kyle. i hope you can be happy now and wish the best for you. goodbye♥ :/


my hearts broken, and i can only think of one thing to fill the void.
 
It sucks man, I've been there myself..

It's going to sound cliche as fuck, but there are a million girls out there man. I'm not saying this one wasn't special, but you will find another one who is equally or more special I promise you.

You could use and fill the void -- sure. The problem is, the pain is still going to be there when you come down.

Time is really the only thing in my experience that heals the pain of a broken relationship.

Just try to remember that the drugs are what fucked up the relationship in the first place, they are the problem not the solution.

Be safe my man..

I wish I had the words to make you feel better, but I don't think they exist..
 
ANd damn dxmkid, where have you been? i was gettin worried about you! THought you died or somethin =(( ! Glad to see you back kiddo.
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thanks man, iv just been trying to get some shit figured out, its nice to be back though. i never thought anyone would miss me, normally everyone says they hate me on here
 
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