I've only used cocaine about 5 times. I hope to never touch the stuff again, because i seen to have a very bad reaction to it, yet i can see myself becoming severely addicted.
The first time--After a couple minutes of snorting the coke, i started feeling very good--just at peice and completly content ...I didnt feel speeded up or anything like that.... I sat their on the floor, motionless for about a half hour just stairing at my bunny rabbits and my dog....they looked more amazing then they ever have. After a while, i began talking to imaginary people out loud. This part was fun and very interesting. My boyfriend came in the room and saw me talking to no one out loud.
But after a little while, i started hallucinating. First, i saw blood coming from the walls, then i saw a black face forming in the fireplace and moving around. It's eye turned into a little white bug and started crawling around. Then, i went outside on the balcony. It was dark out so this made me hallucinate more. Off in the distance, i saw aliens standing out side of their space ship which was shaped like a giant dog's head. They started communicating with me through telepathy, telling me they were there to take me back "home" but then i realized their were spies hiding in between me and the Aliens and they were getting ready to shoot me if i made any advances towards the space ship. So i got real paranoid--I saw shadows running around in the streets, any cars that drove by, i believed were spies, etc.
After a while, i finally went back inside, and soon the effects started dying down and i started getting horrible withdrawls. I felt suddenly very uncomfortable and like i needed more cocaine, after i ran out, all i could do was sit there motionless feeling very uncomfortable for the next 45 minutes--I felt very depressed and scared and sick and like i wanted to die because i had no more coke....
So That's pretty much how all five of my cocaine experiences have been like, only the more i use the stuff, the less good feelings i get from it and the quicker the withdrawls set in and the worse the paranoia gets, etc.
Is this an unusual effect for someone whose only used the stuff 5 times.? I can't imagine if i got addicted to this...i'd probably wind up killing myself. I hope It never gets put in my face again.
The first time--After a couple minutes of snorting the coke, i started feeling very good--just at peice and completly content ...I didnt feel speeded up or anything like that.... I sat their on the floor, motionless for about a half hour just stairing at my bunny rabbits and my dog....they looked more amazing then they ever have. After a while, i began talking to imaginary people out loud. This part was fun and very interesting. My boyfriend came in the room and saw me talking to no one out loud.
But after a little while, i started hallucinating. First, i saw blood coming from the walls, then i saw a black face forming in the fireplace and moving around. It's eye turned into a little white bug and started crawling around. Then, i went outside on the balcony. It was dark out so this made me hallucinate more. Off in the distance, i saw aliens standing out side of their space ship which was shaped like a giant dog's head. They started communicating with me through telepathy, telling me they were there to take me back "home" but then i realized their were spies hiding in between me and the Aliens and they were getting ready to shoot me if i made any advances towards the space ship. So i got real paranoid--I saw shadows running around in the streets, any cars that drove by, i believed were spies, etc.
After a while, i finally went back inside, and soon the effects started dying down and i started getting horrible withdrawls. I felt suddenly very uncomfortable and like i needed more cocaine, after i ran out, all i could do was sit there motionless feeling very uncomfortable for the next 45 minutes--I felt very depressed and scared and sick and like i wanted to die because i had no more coke....
So That's pretty much how all five of my cocaine experiences have been like, only the more i use the stuff, the less good feelings i get from it and the quicker the withdrawls set in and the worse the paranoia gets, etc.
Is this an unusual effect for someone whose only used the stuff 5 times.? I can't imagine if i got addicted to this...i'd probably wind up killing myself. I hope It never gets put in my face again.
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