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[jakoz]

this grey world.
antiworld with its antiaura
im told i should feel a tie to this nothingness
i know i should... but i cant
negative inclination... apathy squared
the nothingworld has no interest for me
actively sever myself from it...
...ignore everything
i seem to prefer it that way now

dont ask me why
my imaginary answer would be lies

hollow inside
i shouldnt be lacking, but nothings there
i have everything... can feel nothing
habitual breathing
living on autopilot
i have everything - so i cant be feeling this
not suicidal but not living either
the lowman... the nothing figure
the ghost soul...

...and what scares me the most...
i have everything, but feel like this...
so what the hell could pull me out?



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im not much of a writer, so i try to avoid it
but sometimes i need an outlet.

 

[harraser]

jake beleive me, i know how you feel. just cruising, doing what youve gotta do and not much more becuase nothing holds that old lustre anymore. ive managed to get out of this rut before, and i know i will again, and you will too. but for now im gonna wallow for a while. if you ever need to talk man you know how to get a hold of me.

 

[cherub]

I like the way it was written simplicity and yet strong.
and you said you were not a writter,, your welcome here anytime to outlet


Chin up,, seems alot of us are struggling with what is.


HUGS:D :D :D :D

 

[toro]

habitual breathing
living on autopilot
i have everything - so i cant be feeling this
not suicidal but not living either

my life, encapsulated in a few lines. existing, not living. the tension of waiting for something to happen. life in limbo. change is coming, but when? and in what form? death by a thousand cuts is still death nonetheless, and waiting to die is no way to live a life. i have no answers, only more questions, and more confusions.

 

[Dagny]

How do we end up sitting, and worried that nothing will ever make us feel excitement or awe again. Dunno what happens to get us there, hun, but I am sure that it's never permanent. We can't avoid making choices, and those are the things that always move us out of the nothingness. Only make sure you're wary of decisions that keep you sitting still.

 

[PsychoKitten]

honey everything I want to say, I'm sure I've said already...

I believe in you... i believe in the strength within you, i believe in your ability to find it.

if you ever choose to reach out, you know where to find me.

*hugs*

 

[Innocuous]

the world turns, and pain, like pleasure, leaks away. everything is nothing really, things arn't pleasure, they only make bareable the unbearable and nothing more.
it will leak away, if you can bear this, it will, at last, leak away.

asides from that empathetic moment... it's perfectly written, I realy like the way you've doubled together some of the words. nice, thats one of the better pieces I've read in a fair awhile.

vani

 

[plazma]

Fuck me...

I'd attempt to answer the question you posed within that piece, but I'm unsure of the number of answers I could give, there'd be quite a few I expect. But I'll give you the two at either extreme of the spectrum.

What could pull you out of how you feel, when you have everything?

A1) Nothing: The less you have the more you learn not to dwell on your own plight.

A2) You're lacking something so ephemeral you're unsure what it is yet, either that, or you're just lying when you say you have everything.

Its a very nice piece of work, about something to which most people (except the terminally cheerful) can relate to with relative ease.

Keep it up.

-plaz out-

 

[Cosmic Mist]

for someone who claims to not be much of a writer, you certainly have a knack for self expression.

I would like to offer some sort of cosolation or meaningful thought, but in times like these i believe that only the individual them self can pull themselves out of it...

.. the only realisations we truely believe are those we come to on our own.

SMile - the world is a beautiful place.