smoke weed again after experiencing psychotic symptoms

[eekamouse]

Hello,

Ive already read some posts on the forum , but i wanted to start a new thread to ask some advice from people who have been through the same shit.

In the past , i have smoked weed for 5-6 years , but two years ago everything changed. I have to say i wasnt feeling well that time. And when i smoked ,
i began to feel a lot of anxiety and paranoia. Even the days after , the anxiety and paranoia were still there. Every time i smoked , it happened again over and over.

I went to a psychiatrist and began to take medication. I also have been hospitalized several times. To figure out what was going on with me.
Also one year after it began , i was sober and i still had some delusions , and i was feeling very bad.

Now two years later i'm still recovering but much better. I think i had a psychosis but i'm not sure. I never heard voices or had hallucinations. But my thinking was disturbed , i think (pretty sure) i had delusions.
I thought everybody was against me , etc.. Because the most of it is behind me , i want to smoke again. Last week i tried some hash , and everything went well. And even the day after i was feeling good
and remarkably calm. After the hash i arranged some weed. Again no bad feelings or anxiety,paranoia,... But after a couple of days i was aware that my mental condition was deteriorating. I recognized some feelings and thoughts from the time i was still sick.

So i was wondering does someone recognizes this? And do you still smoke weed

Anyway thanks for reading

 

[Pagey]

Getting intense paranoia when smoking weed is not particularly rare unfortunately. I know a lot of people who get that and it does get much worse if you continue to smoke - so my advice is definitely stop smoking it! It will come back.

 

[opium]

i was diagnosed with drug induced psychosis, which is when using certain drugs or drugs at all, tweak your brain a way it shouldnt and you experience a form of psychosis relative to schizophrenia, but you know it isnt real. most of the time.

i used legal highs, such as bath salt/ herbal smoking blends. It messed up my head bad from only a 3 month continued use.

i was put on seroquel and after taking it for a while my head was fixed, and the legals were out of my system.

they told me continued drug use could land me back in a psychiatric unit back on meds, or even a possible permanent state of psychosis all caused by drugs. i continued to use, marijuana and other drugs. My paranoia seemed to be worse ever since i had gone through psychosis, but the full problem never came back. It seems the paranoia and anxiety were just intensified after my run in with psychosis.

My suggestion is what do you value more? a few hours sitting on your couch eating potato chips, or a life-long stable mental state? Your choice brother.

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

I would not use drugs if I were you.

 

[BlueHues]

Once you cross over into psychosis, you can trigger it again by using drugs.....If I'm in a weird mood and I go out,sometimes I have this awful feeling that everyone hates me and knows all the bad things I ever did, and I get this peculiar feeling like I'm going crazy....

I know for me that it was triggered by stimulants, and thats definitely not something I can really mess with anymore....
I value my sanity, and I don't need to use those kinds of drugs anymore. It sucks really, I feel like I would've been fine had I not overdone it but now I have to deal with what I've done to myself... I'm currently not delusional or psychotic, but I still kind of feel like I'm swimming in unreality. It sucks, but thinking about it makes it worse.....I believe you can think your way into a psychotic state....It's like this fear I can feel building in my chest....
The first time it happened, I was little off for awhile but eventually I went back to normal....I was able to go back to using everything recreationally, but I overdid it again!
Pretty sure it was MDPV this time, which I should have known was exactly the type of drug I should have left alone.....You only have one body and mind. Meditation helps me feel balanced...I really hate medication, but if you can't control the symptoms, it might be the only option

 

[badfish45]

As has been said, this is not uncommon for long time marijuana use. It's far more worth it just to stop rather than to go through the hell that you did with psychosis and paranoia. Are you using any other drugs?

 

[eekamouse]

As has been said, this is not uncommon for long time marijuana use. It's far more worth it just to stop rather than to go through the hell that you did with psychosis and paranoia. Are you using any other drugs?

I sometimes do MDMA , but i never had a bad experience with it. And i did speed one time , but it is nothing for me...

Yesterday i arranged some weed from a guy , i didnt knew what strain it was.. And after smoking it i felt good in the beginning. But after a while i started to think a bit negatively , and once i did , it was very hard for me to stop it. It's like i cant make my thoughts back positive. It almost continued the whole evening. And now the day after i still feel it , its like yesterday my brain made some new connections , and now they are still active. I'm not paranoid or psychotic , but i can still feel the feeling a had yesterday , but less intense. Does someone recognizes this?

 

[Jackeh]

It sounds like you don't have the right mindset for using cannabis if you are thinking negatively. It also isn't a good idea to be using it if you have experienced psychosis, move onto something else or give up on them completely, it won't be worth the risk.

 

[herbavore]

What is stopping you from just being totally sober for a while? I think letting your brain clear and heal and reset sounds like it would have obvious benefits. Is it boredom that makes that unpalatable? Anxiety? whatever it is there are plenty of non-drug ways to tackle it. When weed started making me paranoid years ago, I stopped. At first I missed it but with time I found that there were so many other ways to relax, connect with friends, even to space out (which I love to do!) The best part of cutting a substance out of your life is realizing that you do not need anything that you don't already have inside to reach the states you want to reach.

 

[Gerryey]

Questions

Eekamouse,

I see it has been years since you posted this.

I am experiencing the same exact symptoms you went through.

I created this account to talk to you personally and get insight on this subject that has now taken over my life.

Is there an email I can contact you to and maybe you can answer my questions?

Thank you very much man,

Gerry