Crackle pop
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 16, 2021
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- 160
Ugh so not only am I on my 3rd day of using smoking rocks spent my disability money spent my weed money that I smoke daily and I've been buy a bag of H bcoz im sick of bein wired waiting to come down with that dread real fear something bad is going to happen.
I'm fucked I've picked up sat n Sundays meth which means tomorrow I can ride the comedown in bed I find myself sleeping loads more for 2 to3 days after a session n sleep it off so that's my plan.
I had set rules I stuck to for months . Only use if your able to afford it with out going without something else. Never use two days in a row. And not to keep buying more when you run out. I've broken all three.
I'm down to my last £40 and have a important delivery white goods Monday thats 30 on delivery lol my own doin. I have asked the old man for a loan until pay day but this goes against every thing and after months n months stable on meth I've been smoking H for a smooth comedown.
With my illness iam my own worst nightmare ..... tomorrow's a new day I've gotta sort my head and stop for good . Dabbling always ALWAYS leads back to a relapse.
Just a rant I suppose guys ugh I hate myself
I'm fucked I've picked up sat n Sundays meth which means tomorrow I can ride the comedown in bed I find myself sleeping loads more for 2 to3 days after a session n sleep it off so that's my plan.
I had set rules I stuck to for months . Only use if your able to afford it with out going without something else. Never use two days in a row. And not to keep buying more when you run out. I've broken all three.
I'm down to my last £40 and have a important delivery white goods Monday thats 30 on delivery lol my own doin. I have asked the old man for a loan until pay day but this goes against every thing and after months n months stable on meth I've been smoking H for a smooth comedown.
With my illness iam my own worst nightmare ..... tomorrow's a new day I've gotta sort my head and stop for good . Dabbling always ALWAYS leads back to a relapse.
Just a rant I suppose guys ugh I hate myself