Apparently I'm sleeping just fine (according to a sleep study I underwent), but I've had problems with episodic memory and multitasking for about 5 years after using MDMA, so I'm trying to get my brain to "heal".
That sucks, I have had problems sleeping (most likely not drug related) and the sleep study I took also told me how fine I was. I sure didn't feel fine.
To jog your memory just a little, it might help trying to play a game online where the board shows you all the tiles, then flips them over, and you have to pair them. I know, cheesy sounding, but it very well could help a little bit with memory, or even multitasking.
I think this is because there is a genetic difference between people who are susceptible to its neurotoxicity and those who aren't, which confounds all studies to date. (Or I and some others got something that wasn't pure MDMA).
Makes complete sense.
If MDMA has one toxic metabolite, and 90% of people possess the enzyme to metabolize it quickly, the 10% who lack this enzyme will be stuck with the toxic metabolite longer at higher doses.*
*-I'm not saying this is a mechanism of action for MDMA neurotoxicity, just an example of how genetics
could play a role.
This article almost contradicts itself: "A growing number of studies describe differences between ecstasy users and nonusers. These studies have serious limitations
It does almost, but, I just think it proves the difficulty in proving neurotoxicity.
But most studies involving street drugs are hard to control and always have serious limitations. I mean, no one knows whether the tablets they received were pure MDMA unless they GC/MS the stuff. Even the Marquis and other reagents can't tell without a doubt that what you've got is completely 100% pure shit with just a few fillers, no other actives.
Unfortunately, I'm a bit of an exception. I never took any illicit drugs before I took MDMA (except for alcohol). Of course, my case wasn't a controlled clinical trial, but I was healthy (short of anxiety issues) at the time.
Anyway, I'm just looking for some way to make a full or partial-recovery.
That is a pretty big exception.
Most people don't start out with MDMA.
As mentioned above, I have sleeping issues as well. I just received the
phenibut (Beta-phenyl-gamma-aminobutyric acid) I ordered.
I haven't tried it yet, but I'll let you know if I feel any relief. Some people report going past 5g of the stuff, and having what they compare to mild to moderate benzodiazepine withdrawal.
The stuff I got is in 250mg capsules, so I plan on staying in the lower dose range. 1-3 capsules, with one good high test dose (after initial low test dose) to get a feel for it.
However, I might be able to buy the pill from myself, and have it analyzed, just in case it wasn't ecstasy. That might give me some leads on how to proceed.