Truly i was a child who forced himself to grow too fast. I was far too concerned about the destination i took little note of the journey. This is my biggest downfall could have at least observed the weathering first hand. Now all i do is look back and smile. Confounded by the past tense image of myself and how exactly i got here in this condition. Never really gave myself much room to grow always concerned with being one step ahead. In reality i was being left in the dust by my peers all the while telling myself that i am superior. A retrospect of everything reveals i succeeded in twisting up more and more stress all the while thinking about how much better it will be to be considered equal. I never gave myself enough slack wanted to be atlas with the world on my shoulders. If only i could have known that i was killing the child in myself. No one ever saw problems with this i kept the stress on chill couldn't let anyone see me weakened. Now i am grown somewhat and i now have the wisdom i so eagerly wanted but at such dire costs. If only i could have told myself to slow down a little that ill always have time to grow old but time to enjoy life is fleeting and you will wither and die inside if you keep this pace. I guess no point in looking back now to all of those eager to be something you are not just remember take it slow you dont want to lose yourself in your hurry. Let atlas be im sure the world can fend for itself a while.
