Slipped Again! Argg!

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

So a friend shows up with desoxyn. I say, what the hell, and pop six 5mg pills. Bad idea. I then proceed to feel it wearing off and pop four more. Instead of my 4mg ativan I took 8mg that day and 8mg yesterday along with like nine drinks (reckless, I know). I can't be drinking like that. And I especially can't take so much frickin adderall. The ativan was down to 2mg, so I'm not fully tolerant to 4mg, so I will take less than 4mg today.

I really can't have this happening with school finals nearby. Any advice would be most helpful.

 

[herbavore]

The only advice I can think of is the old tried and true one minute at a time, one hour at a time and one day at a time strategy. When I feel that out of control and that willing to simply give in to every impulse it is the only thing that I can do. Otherwise I do that insidious self deception of telling myself the change will be made in some mythical future rather than now.

In this case, now is where you want to be. Deal with each impulse/craving as it happens telling yourself it is just for now.

Sorry you are going through this.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

Thanks for the response

Reciprocated love and hope you're doing well

I will try for the now.

Right now though I'm on my prescription partly due to alcohol abuse and I've had 4 beers and its a school night. Shit... Oh well can't change the past.

 

[neversickanymore]

Slip ups indicate that we will need to alter our approach in some way to avoid slipping up in that way again. They are like little lessons and if we learn from them then and make changes to our current approach, we will not fall in the same holes over and over.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

Thanks to both of you. I will change my approach and think about every instant. I will learn that cravings are ephemeral. I won't have this happen again!