downward_spiral
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 28, 2005
- Messages
- 47
I think half of why I'm so hard on myself reguarding myk weight is because I so desperately wish I was a guy. I don't want to be one of those "dyke bitches" as my X-boyfriend calls them. But I do wish I was a guy. I wear a lot of guy clothes. By staying skinny---no hips, no boobs, etc---i feel more like a guy.
I've always had a thin build, but now that I'm off the tweak, my annorexic thought-pattern is kicking back in. I'm scared to eat much now. When I'm tweaking I eat all kinds of junk food and never gain a pound. I'm 5'8" and weigh 115 at the moment---and think I should loose 10 pounds.
Yeah, the media tells us skinny is okay. I mean, look at Mary-Kate Olsen. And they say she recovered? Yeah... sure.... whatever.
A-tweak
I've always had a thin build, but now that I'm off the tweak, my annorexic thought-pattern is kicking back in. I'm scared to eat much now. When I'm tweaking I eat all kinds of junk food and never gain a pound. I'm 5'8" and weigh 115 at the moment---and think I should loose 10 pounds.
Yeah, the media tells us skinny is okay. I mean, look at Mary-Kate Olsen. And they say she recovered? Yeah... sure.... whatever.
A-tweak