how often we think we are the only ones
laying in silence, millions of thoughts crowding our heads
how often do we think am i the only one going through this
am i the only one in total misery?
how often do these thoughts go through my head
the first kiss, the last......
my first i love you, the one that didn't last
all the hearts i've broken
all those who have broken my heart
prmosise made, yet unkept, words spoken yet unacted upon
that sweet smile a simple touch
yet everything is still soooooo complicated in my head,
as lay here tonight thinking, of al the things he said. of all the things i should've done,
i try to remember that i'm not alone we're not alone, as i know i'll get an unexpected call, from a person far away saying, i cant sleep tonight will you help me through this hell?
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i lay here in bed tossing and turning, every once in a while rescuing my teddy bear from falling off my bed, i think of the way you left me standing here, recalling the words you said...have fun....am i just a stranger to you who's leaving and won't be missed?
i may just being childish expecting way too much, but am i wrong for feeling this way? even if it feels like a constant pain laying deep within my chest? am i wrong for falling for you? for taking another chance, while you stand back and watch from afar, taking a step back every chance you get?
do u even realise that im gonna be gone? does it even matter to you?
im sorry for trying, sorry for giving it another chance, i thought you weren't judgemental, i thought you weren't 'freaked out', so why is it the day i open up to you, you start holding back? why encourage it? you knew i was afraid of getting hurt, yet ..........i guess what im trying to say is....nothing...simply nothing but alot of pointless rambling on, just trying to ease my pain.
i know i'll sign off and go back to bed, yet the deamons will rush straight back in, i silently scream and shout remind myself i've got finals in less than 24hours, but i cant brush these feelings away, prioritize, or maybe i am as being happy to me, is my first priority, but my happiness doesn't lay in you, when did i lose my ground, when did you become my priority? when did i let myself go, become vulnerable ....i cant put it in words anymore, maybe it's time i stop typing and go to bed.
[ 09 December 2001: Message edited by: unicorn83 ]
laying in silence, millions of thoughts crowding our heads
how often do we think am i the only one going through this
am i the only one in total misery?
how often do these thoughts go through my head
the first kiss, the last......
my first i love you, the one that didn't last
all the hearts i've broken
all those who have broken my heart
prmosise made, yet unkept, words spoken yet unacted upon
that sweet smile a simple touch
yet everything is still soooooo complicated in my head,
as lay here tonight thinking, of al the things he said. of all the things i should've done,
i try to remember that i'm not alone we're not alone, as i know i'll get an unexpected call, from a person far away saying, i cant sleep tonight will you help me through this hell?
--------------------------------
i lay here in bed tossing and turning, every once in a while rescuing my teddy bear from falling off my bed, i think of the way you left me standing here, recalling the words you said...have fun....am i just a stranger to you who's leaving and won't be missed?
i may just being childish expecting way too much, but am i wrong for feeling this way? even if it feels like a constant pain laying deep within my chest? am i wrong for falling for you? for taking another chance, while you stand back and watch from afar, taking a step back every chance you get?
do u even realise that im gonna be gone? does it even matter to you?
im sorry for trying, sorry for giving it another chance, i thought you weren't judgemental, i thought you weren't 'freaked out', so why is it the day i open up to you, you start holding back? why encourage it? you knew i was afraid of getting hurt, yet ..........i guess what im trying to say is....nothing...simply nothing but alot of pointless rambling on, just trying to ease my pain.
i know i'll sign off and go back to bed, yet the deamons will rush straight back in, i silently scream and shout remind myself i've got finals in less than 24hours, but i cant brush these feelings away, prioritize, or maybe i am as being happy to me, is my first priority, but my happiness doesn't lay in you, when did i lose my ground, when did you become my priority? when did i let myself go, become vulnerable ....i cant put it in words anymore, maybe it's time i stop typing and go to bed.
[ 09 December 2001: Message edited by: unicorn83 ]
