hey, er been a few days since i blogged. im here at the local public libaray so able to get on my laptop n fuck around on the internet until my dr.apt at 1:30ish, anyways last night was a first of me sleeping at a tuckstop here in uptown bham', shits nothing like camping. wokeup 2342 times, sweating,sticky, nervous, but CLEAN! wtf right? shit didn't even cross my mind to use... i mean i do have some 2cb, but fuck that shit when ur homeless having to sleep n ur car, ill jus save that until im better off, and with a tripping buddy..
i wont go into much detal because most of people know the outcomes, i was discharged from my IOP drug classes because i took a day off running around going to job interviews, so my counsler gave me some shit about that, and not having some of my asignments done, its not like i havnt learnt that shit before, so they were paying for my bed at the halfway house hell i was at, and since i didnt have the $ to stay, they asked me to leave. i left early because i couldnt take it anymore there, last night it was like a dope shooting party, and knowing that i have a drugtest coming up that was enough will power for me to say NO damnit and leave, i just told my thieving ass roomates that i was going to the store and just bounced, had my shit packed anyway (was around 10pmish), so i really had no where to go, no gas $, riding on a quarter tank, but clean. since my family turned against me(tough love shit), i couldnt go to them for help because how they worded it 'im a grown man', havnt talked to them since mothers day, and that was using a homeless persons cellphone to txt my mother happy mothers day.
i'm living the movie pursuit of happiness, but least i dont have a kid with me, shit woulda been awful(plus theres no more room in my car because its loaded down with so much fucking shit. so until i can get some $ coming in, im pretty much limited in what i can and cant do(such as driving around). shit sucks yo, for real. living my old life style,but clean and sober.
i dunno what to do tonight, trying not to think that far ahead, atleast for now im safe and drinking free libary coffee.
until next time
i wont go into much detal because most of people know the outcomes, i was discharged from my IOP drug classes because i took a day off running around going to job interviews, so my counsler gave me some shit about that, and not having some of my asignments done, its not like i havnt learnt that shit before, so they were paying for my bed at the halfway house hell i was at, and since i didnt have the $ to stay, they asked me to leave. i left early because i couldnt take it anymore there, last night it was like a dope shooting party, and knowing that i have a drugtest coming up that was enough will power for me to say NO damnit and leave, i just told my thieving ass roomates that i was going to the store and just bounced, had my shit packed anyway (was around 10pmish), so i really had no where to go, no gas $, riding on a quarter tank, but clean. since my family turned against me(tough love shit), i couldnt go to them for help because how they worded it 'im a grown man', havnt talked to them since mothers day, and that was using a homeless persons cellphone to txt my mother happy mothers day.
i'm living the movie pursuit of happiness, but least i dont have a kid with me, shit woulda been awful(plus theres no more room in my car because its loaded down with so much fucking shit. so until i can get some $ coming in, im pretty much limited in what i can and cant do(such as driving around). shit sucks yo, for real. living my old life style,but clean and sober.
i dunno what to do tonight, trying not to think that far ahead, atleast for now im safe and drinking free libary coffee.
until next time
