Rather than wake up in the morning and go for a walk, you could give 2 shits and consider time asleep much more valuable. You enjoy it because lets face it sleep IS one of the easiest ways in the world to pass time.
^THIS
I feel tired, worn down, lacking any energy when I wake up that I just keep sleeping.
I got tired around 11pm but pushed through it cause it's too early for my bf Anthony to be tired and he would have stayed up and kept me awake.
He tried to get me out of bed today by playing video games REALLY loud and leaving loud static on the TV when he is done. Really it just tends to make me angry and want to go back to sleep.
Yeh I hear yah completely.
Not many people probably become as obsessed as you and me about something as simple and natural as sleep but even the idea of how sleep happens to me has always bothered me.
Like you just sit down and close your eyes and everything else besides that seems to be out of your control. "Am I gonna fall asleep right away.. am I gonna lay here for 3 hours awake.. am I gonna drift slowly into a half way conscious state RIGHT ABOUT to pass out then hear a loud truck outside and wake up?". I am definitely a very sensitive sleeper when I'm about to go to sleep. But I am the complete opposite waking up. I don't mean its hard for a noise to wake me up. Its how easily I can drift back out of consiousness after having a full 8 hours already.
It can happen multiple times too.
Like I can wake up at 8am, roll around for 15mins and go right back to bed.
Then I can wake up at 11am and do the SAME thing.
Its not rare for me to go through this process 2-3 times every morning.
By the last time it can be 1 or 2pm in the afternoon, I lay there trying to drift back out and finally I can't.
At this point I may have slept easily for 12 hours, and even though my body is extremely stiff and lethargic, my mind can't shut off anymore. Thats when I assume "Ive had enough sleep" because I can naturally get up. The problem is it just can't be natural at all to sleep 12 hours everyday of your life waking up at 2pm in the afternoon.
Now theres more downsides to this I've noticed.
1) JUST BECAUSE your body is in a mummified state for soo long it makes it that much harder to get going in the afternoon when you DO finally wake up. Even after waking up at 2pm with 12 hours sleep, I don't really feel awake till 4-5pm. And its also common to still feel somewhat tired till 10pm at night. I'll be yawning at 5pm still and people think I'm starting to wind down for the day having no clue its because I'm still actually waking up.
"Crazy" is not even the word for it.
2) When you DO SLEEP for 12 hours you are realistically changing the length of your days. With that much sleep its far too easy to feel like you can go about 20 hours after that till naturally feeling tired again. The reality is however I'm only awake for another 12 hours before its "bedtime" again, which can be around 4am. So just sleeping that long to begin you will NEVER be able to go to bed at night.
Chances are you would biologically do better on a 36 hour day cycle. The problem is there is 6 billion people in this world with 1 conventional bedtime, usually before 10-12midnight.
Now to sum up some stuff.
I can tell you from a fact this is how it at least works for me.
If I sleep 8 hours its always very difficult to get moving in the morning. But exhausting that energy in the mornings to get up makes you exhaust less energy at night going to sleep at a proper time.
Just because you FEEL like you can sleep 12 hours a day does NOT mean that is the healthiest option for your body. You'll start getting all sorts of problems in your back, stiff joints, pain from trapped nerves, not to mention the inevitable depression which usually always emerges to a degree in late sleepers.
People focus a lot on diet an exercise. Is it important? Of course. How important is it compared to will power and forcing yourself up early? Not important at all.
Breakfast believe it or not is the most important meal of the day for sleep. Not dinner. Its still nothing close to affective as will power but it def helps. Breakfast kickstarts your metabolism. Your metabolism uses ENERGY to break down food and feed your body. Its important you kick start your metabolism as early as possible because as you get less carbs throughout the day (breakfast is always heavy on carbs usually) your metabolism slows down and you will begin coming down from your day. I'd have to say lunch would be the second most important, then dinner. But at dinner try to avoid carbs. It will help your body naturally come down.
As far as waking up. Thats the real problem that noone can really help you with. We can sit here all day speculating at whats affective or what might help you but I still personally feel if you have the motive, and if you have the willpower, you WILL wake up.
The thing is as oversleepers we quickly forget how much willpower is actually needed. I've told myself a thousand times "I really wish I could wake up early tommorow" but even in that case I know deep down I have nothing to look forward to. You really have to drive yourself crazy sometimes tricking yourself into thinking that it will truely be worth waking up in the morning. When you have things you have to do, depending on the consequences for not doing them (like work and getting fired for not showing up) it def makes it easier to wake up.
However I was so notoriously late for work at my former job that my boss rather than fire me has some empathy and stopped writing me up for it. I was able to convince him it was more than just some problems getting up in the morning and that I have suffered from issues all my life with sleep.
The only way I was able to finish school was by taking afternoon classes.
But the saddest part of this problem is very simple for me. I'm essentially sleeping my entire life away. If its common for me to sleep 12 hours a day, and theres only 24 hours in a day, I'm literally sleeping 50% of my life into the garbage. Thats an extra DAY of sleep every 2 days I sleep.
For people who don't have this problem you might be able to realize now how severe it actually is. I've had 1 suicide attempt in my life and it was 2 days after I accidentally slept through a midterm. Sure there was other things going on but that was def the straw that broke the camels back. As strong as denial can be sometimes it was just impossible to deny that something serious was wrong.
I really do know how much this sleep issue must be bothering you. But its most important that you just keep trying new & different strategies and never give up. I'm sure you've been through the setting 5 alarm clocks stage in the morning. I went beyond that and screwed a clock to the corner ceiling of my room. In order to shut it off I had to walk downstairs to get a drill, unscrew it (button was on top where I couldn't squeeze my finger) and press the button which took some time to do. I had to hot glue the plug to the socket so it was permanently attached. EVEN going to those lengths right after I got the alarm off I went right back to bed.
There was times I'd wake up hours after that and just start crying realizing how little control I had. As a man, as someone educated, as someone who for the most part has a good deal of potential in life, I'd cry like a fucking baby not understand what was wrong with me.
Day after day after day year after year it started to devour me inside out. But that was more towards the begining stages as now I realize theres no reason to beat myself up like that because I now believe it IS a legitimate problem and not just me being lazy.
I mean if I was lazy I wouldn't be screwing clocks to the ceiling just to get up in the morning. I still think most late sleepers just honestly have nothing they're excited about in thier life. I've never been a person who really looks forward to tommorow because I don't possess the things in my life that I ultimately want to. Like a wife and a good job, or a family and vacations every year. But I believe the way I'm gonna solve my problem is by FIRST piecing somewhat of a life together that motivates me.
And I DO believe once I have a life that I love, and something to look forward to in my tommorows that I genuinely appreciate, I WILL WAKE UP early. So now its just the preliminary stages of setting real goals in my life and focusing on accomplishing them one by one.
I never was a person to set goals and make sure I was getting closer to them everyday but ever since I've done it my sleep problems have honestly moderated to a degree. It still is very much unstable but I've noticed nothing helps as much as creating something in your life that you can actually look forward to.
And it really does make a lot of sense if you think about it. I mean we can sit here and discuss sleep hygiene and what meds are the best for what times of the season, but I do believe at the core of it all its as simple as finding a life that motivates you. The hard part is you don't actually find that life, you have to create it.
Hope at least 1 thing in this post can help you with your problem. Good luck!
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PPT made sleep pretty much irrelevant to me, I preferred to be tired so that maybe I would nod. Then of course when high I wouldn't truly sleep, and when in withdrawal (like the other half of the time) sleep was almost impossible. It wasn't uncommon for me to miss a nights sleep a few times each week.