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superSWIMer
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(To MODS: Healthy Living? Darkside Maybe?)
I have had a reoccurring problem since January I'd like to share with the people on bluelight, first off I am posting anon because I plan on doing a little self implication because it fills in some of the holes in the story.
Problem:
Since my birthday, when I greened out on Marijuana, I've been having reoccuring panic attacks before I fall asleep and experiencing sleep paralysis (can;t move, shortness of breath ect)
About me:
Student living in rez making money selling pot, mdma, and coke when I get it.
My friends would describe as extremely paranoid and nerutic.
Low self esteem, pretty much afraid of women after my last train wreck relationship.
Incidents leading up to attacks:
New years eve went all out, took 8-10 e pills, had what appeared to be heat attack, lost feeling in hand, thought I had fucked up big and that was it, felt like shit for days.
After that I pretty much lost my balls for traffiking, I was always worried my costumers were gonna OD, this made me more highstrung, pushed off some lsd in rez, which was a big mistake which lead to the heat being turned up on me, making my life pretty damn stressful. birthday rolls around shortly after, take 2 hits off a blunt and green out so bad it was amazing, for hours I thought I was going to die, losing vision, couldn't walk, throwing up ect.
Ever since then I have been having these attacks right before I fall asleep, sometimes it feels like something has picked me up out of bed and flung me around the room, or like I'm spinning out of control and can barely breath, lately my dreams seem to take on a new realism and I'm helpless until the attack wheres off, I've learned to calm myself during them and tell myself that its all just going to end soon and I"ll be fine, but these are really inconvenient.
has anyone else experienced something similar.
I have had a reoccurring problem since January I'd like to share with the people on bluelight, first off I am posting anon because I plan on doing a little self implication because it fills in some of the holes in the story.
Problem:
Since my birthday, when I greened out on Marijuana, I've been having reoccuring panic attacks before I fall asleep and experiencing sleep paralysis (can;t move, shortness of breath ect)
About me:
Student living in rez making money selling pot, mdma, and coke when I get it.
My friends would describe as extremely paranoid and nerutic.
Low self esteem, pretty much afraid of women after my last train wreck relationship.
Incidents leading up to attacks:
New years eve went all out, took 8-10 e pills, had what appeared to be heat attack, lost feeling in hand, thought I had fucked up big and that was it, felt like shit for days.
After that I pretty much lost my balls for traffiking, I was always worried my costumers were gonna OD, this made me more highstrung, pushed off some lsd in rez, which was a big mistake which lead to the heat being turned up on me, making my life pretty damn stressful. birthday rolls around shortly after, take 2 hits off a blunt and green out so bad it was amazing, for hours I thought I was going to die, losing vision, couldn't walk, throwing up ect.
Ever since then I have been having these attacks right before I fall asleep, sometimes it feels like something has picked me up out of bed and flung me around the room, or like I'm spinning out of control and can barely breath, lately my dreams seem to take on a new realism and I'm helpless until the attack wheres off, I've learned to calm myself during them and tell myself that its all just going to end soon and I"ll be fine, but these are really inconvenient.
has anyone else experienced something similar.