Similarity between deliriants and psychosis

[paranoid android]

I had no idea where to put this so i put itr here. pHas anyone else noticed how deliriants are very similar to psychosis/ I have taken 25 dramamine in the past and i suffered from psychosis for 3 months. i noticed how psychosis was similar to deleriants and may even have mentioned this to my stupid shrunk who had no idea what i was talking about of course. my friend also experienced psychosis and cotards syndrome also and noticed how similar psychosis was to datura. I have never had the balls to try datura and dont really wanna take it lol

But i would ike to know if anyone else has experienced both

 

[chicken hoagie]

Yes, absolutely. Delirients are anticholinergics and effectively shut down your working memory. Without the ability to memorize and interpret things in front of you, your sub conscience begins to manifest the scene for you and fills in the 'blanks.' I have been to the psych ward multiple times last year..went through quite a doozy..attempted suicide, got shot weeks later, walked around dallas aimlessly thinking my dad was chasing me around dallas with a gun, along with the person that shot me and got away and all of his cronies. Fled dallas, got to illinois in a major psychosis, thought missouri state police were chasing me, thought they followed me in a bathroom, ended up on somebodys farm sleeping in the front yard, thought all of the surrounding villages were in a purge, killing eachother fighting for resources. I took a shit in the yard, and this farm dog came up and literally gobbled down my big ass turd like it was he was STARVING. And then he proceeded to roll around in the smeared leftover shit. I started dyyyying laughing. So i thought i had to wait for this farmer and team up with him to stay safe from the other villages right? Needless to say, he came home and talked to me kindly, then went inside and called the cops..and my dumbass, with my car there, waited for the cops cus at this point i wasnt even sure WHY i was here my damn self

I had a safe on me filled with <snip> and when the cops opened that safe, they all said Wooooahhh we found the motherload. and i was so high that i was convinced the farmer was a pig farmer that saw a guy on a fourwheeler get his head sniped and blown off, and fed the body to pigs. The cops werent sure what to do with me, they put me in a room, released me, i was walking out of the booking area of the jail and never even fucking realized that they just literally let me walk scott free, and i shit you not bro.

This cop handed me my bag of shit <snip>. I looked at the CO, i said this shit aint mine WTF throw this shit away!! I thought hell no this is a setup if i walk out with this shit im busted. (He handed it to me with a big smile and said here you go heres ur stuff!) Sooooo sketchy right? Well, this black dude comes in and starts talking to the CO and says he was just released from the jail, he set his phone down and a cop that came in walked right out with his phone. My face lit up, and i remember seeing this cop leave, and i thought it was the pig farmer. (Now, im in a meth psychosis. My brain is now fucking SPINNING with theories). Needless to say, i end up arguing with a front desk guy at a tow truck place that has my car, and i call the cops and tell them how theres a conspiracy going on with the pig farmer and not being able to get my car out and im predicting my own arrest when i call the cops out here right..


Well, i actually end up getting very nicely, BAKER acted against my will...

I turned into some kind of crazy animal in the psych ward observation room and tried attacking the guards by getting in a sprinting stance and charging at the locked door full speed...they were all scared shitless because of my size. Well, they came in fucking DEEEEEEP, with two giant thorazine tranqs, and said dont resist or itll just hurt more!!! I said awwww fuuuuuuckkkokay guys you got me i give im done just get it over with.


They stuck me in each shoulder at the same time, i YELPED, and planked sideways...

Woke up, ate breakfast, got on this weird video visit with a psych, and when he asked me "jordan, do you want to get on your meds and feel better?"

I just replied... Yeeeeeeeessssss"



now here is the final fucked up part of this story..

the 2nd day in the ward, this nurse came to check up on me right? Well, when she came in, she wanted to check on my stomach scar(gunshot surgery scar). I had picked off the entire healing scar with my fingernails, along with a decent sized chunk of my nose. <snip> Anyways, when she came in my room, i said i didnt feel right...

my back began to get this weird energy, and before you know it, my head is trying to touch the back of my heels and i cannot for the life of me unlock the spasm. My spine was literally contorting backwards, and i screamed so bloody loud that when all of the nurses and doctors came running in, some of the nurses got DEATHLY scared and ran out. They hit me with shot after shot of ativan and benadryl and clonidine, to absolutely NO avail. The doctor kept saying breathe jordan breathe focus on relaxing!! It was no use, i tried so hard but all i could do was yell in this scary exorcist like tone. Ive never to this day yelled for my life like that, ever. Im convinced it was an exorcism of some sort..i blacked out and woke up in the ICU dazed and confused...they had to call my next of kin to let them know i was dying and likely would not survive. They didnt say much about it after the fact..they didnt even tell me i almost died. I found out from my friend later that they called him.

anyways, that concludes my story. I left out a massive amount of hilarious detail, but its too much to type.


Oh, and at the end of all of it, I never got charged because the cops had to put me in the psych ward after they released me from the jail and just figured i would be found not guilty by reasons of insanity or mental illness, so it actually all worked out. LOL

 

[chicken hoagie]

Per anybody's request, i would tell the whole story. It is pretty fuckin' hilarious. But also very brutal.

 

[Senior Moderator]

Per anybody's request, i would tell the whole story. It is pretty fuckin' hilarious. But also very brutal.

It's probably not suitable content for The Dark Side. We don't allow triggering content to be posted in this section of Bluelight due to the sensitive nature of the forum. If you wish to tell the story you can always post it in the Trip Reports or Drug Culture forum.

 

[Jabberwocky]

There's definitely a similarity, but psychosis has always been different each time and difficult for me to pin down and describe.

I've experienced different types of psychosis from 6 different types of drugs; deliriants, psychedelics, alcohol, benzo wds, stimulants/sleep deprivation, and dissociatives.

All of them had their own "flavor" to them, and it always seemed like some of the drug that caused it was dragged into the psychosis itself (especially psychedelics). Although, this may be some sort of retrospective bias.

But one of the constants was memory loss and the resulting confusion of that. I've been lucky in that in most of my psychoses I never really suffered from major delusions or paranoia, I did sometimes but it was usually brief or a passing thought.

My 2 experiences with deliriants are well in the past, 20 years ago. I do remember some of the hallucinations quite fondly, and the confusion, but the memories are starting to fade. Oddly or maybe not so oddly, I can remember these experiences a lot better than a lot of what occurred in various psychosis from the last 5 years.

 

[chicken hoagie]

It's probably not suitable content for The Dark Side. We don't allow triggering content to be posted in this section of Bluelight due to the sensitive nature of the forum. If you wish to tell the story you can always post it in the Trip Reports or Drug Culture forum.

Definitely. I meant more as on request, in private..there are details i may not want to share with the world at large..lol

 

[foodcrisis]

taking dramamine i got a lot more visual hallucinations than in times of psychosis, plus there's the feeling of your body being fucked up. i was always able to remember i was on drugs with dramamine... i was psychotic for a couple of years thinking my neighbors and people from my past were playing their voices through speakers in their house to pretend to be hallucinations. i was pretty convinced about this for a couple of years. when i was taking dramamine in my teens i didn't have problems with auditory hallucinations. in my late twenties and early thirties with psychosis, i was having a ton of auditory problems. i thought they had an xray camera on my house and they were making a television show about my day to day activity.

also in my early twenties i overdosed on lsd thinking that i was locked in my room with my girlfriend and my duty was to get her pregnant. i thought i was locked in my room for like months on end at one point and i was yelliing and naked and shit, so my parents called an ambulance on me. lol. this was probably the most confusing psychosis that i ever had.. but it was only for one night. it's funny to think now that i've spent literally years in psychosis thinking my neighbors were fucking with me... it's totally easy for me to handle now. all of the voices came to me in locations where i know people couldn't be messing with me.