silent

[greyspace]

that ring through your lip turns me on -
i didn't say that of course, just:
"oh, you got it redone. it looks...good."
and you -
i miss you terribly.
and i'm sorry for this summer -
sorry for the last ten years -
but I didn't say that either, just:
"fucking awesome weekend. how was yours?"
i went home for a visit -
removed the jewlery from my face -
put on clothes that fit - well, kinda -
swallowed my opinons, left my music here -
and in my head i was screaming -
"love shouldn't be contingent" -
but I didn't say that, either, just:
"everything's fine, its good to be home".
sometimes i think i might start
(saying it, that is)
but i've been silent for so long that
this list seems to work out much better.

 

[fizzygirl]

no better time than the present sweetie

and, as for the latter part...love is not contingent...sure, you may get those jokes or those disapproving grunts (my mom makes those) but i'm pretty sure if it came down to the wire, they'd accept all of it to have you there...

i bet is hurts you more than it pisses you off at any rate, because they are people that you love, and if you shared that, i don't see how they couldn't listen.

 

[E-girl]

ahh, the things we think, but do not say...
is it because the truth hurts? or that we are afriad it will hurt (ourselves/someone else)? do we think that if we just hide our true feelings, that they will go away? it seems so juvenile, when you look at it from a distance, but i've been there, and i know how its so much easier to say "whatever" than it is to say "that means something to me".
life is a mystery. but this little thing you've written about, its a good reminder to all of us, about speaking our minds. my friend eric said this to me once, and i have tried to live by it:
"You'll regret not doing something, more than doing it."
I think it applies to what we say and not say, as well.
i told this to justin once, i dont know if he took it to heart, but i'm sure someone will:
"Lies hurt more than the truth, no matter how bad they are." So just remember, the opposite can also be the same.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
Find one person you can count on forever, one person you can love forever, and one person you can be with forever... and if you're lucky, it will all be the same person.
"Live for the memories."

 

[harraser]

Ive found that nothing hurts more than not knowing what could have been.... say things to the people you love while you can,because one day theyll be gone and all youll have is the lingering feeling that things could have been better
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"if there were no rewards to reap,
no loving embrace to see me through
this tedious path Ive chosen here
I certainly would have walked away by now.
And I still may."-MJK TOOL